Sex and the city is what i wanna be.

Have pms now. think my period is coming.. very bad mood swing. thank god for sex and the city2! headed to potong pasir to choose photo. have ta go back and collect the pic on another day. siannn. then met up with tf to watch sex and the city 2. Elly found me in the cinema! she was supposed to pass me my ear studs.. but she forgot. but she gave me this bag of sweets! so sweet of her! hahaha. [: anyway im on a diet nw.. so better not eat too many of those.

ok. so today's blog will be all about sex and the city!

firstly, as always, sex and the city will blow your mind away as usual. just when u think that our lives cannot get anymore lavish, they teach u what LAVISH means. omg. Abu Dabi. i wanna go there now! lol!! but then, i'd say, sex and the city (SATC) 1 was wayyyy more bimbo than 2. but still as bimbotically fun as usual! satc2 doesnt have a lot of sex scene.. but with samantha.. everything is sexual! LOL! sigh! i wished i had the wardrobe of carrie, the relationship perspective of samantha (which is, nothing serious. she almost settled down in satc), the cuteness of Charlotte and the wits of Miranda! and when i turn mid 40s, i want friends like them. not the lavish part, but their bond. like how samantha turned down her steamy date to spend the night with her girlfriends! i really loveeeee sex and the city 2! always boosts my confidence! i wanna lead carrie's life. i've said it before. and i'll say it again. she's my inspiration! and i wanna have samantha's carefree mindset when it comes to relationships. she's smart. although she's a sexpot.. LOL.. i dun wanna be a sexpot. but then, when last season she was proposed to, she chose not to, and she saw that hawtttt guy showering! lol! sigh. i still hold the belief that anyone who goes through a relationship will definitely end up hurt in one way or another. there will definitely be casualties. its a matter of whether you know it or not. i don't know.. but if i can lead the kind of love life samantha leads, well, i dont see anything bad out of it? although she does have a lonely times.. but hey, theres always pros and cons to everything.. haha. GO SAMANTHA!

ok la. im gonna sleep. heres something i came up for my mum's company:

they're gonna advertise in brd's yearbook. lol.

and fuck, my phonebills came up to $86. shit. really need to sign up for data charge plan soon. maybe tomorrow. data charges chalked up to about $49!

aye, shall head ot bed. OMFG. $86. zomgggggggg. my paycheque from uss last mth was only $77! oh fuck. goodbye GSS. goodbye money. ]:

it has been a long day

it's a long sunday. as the song collide goes.. "even the best fall down sometimes.." seeing ken so upset about his car accident, really hurts me too. it was nothing serious. the motorcyclist had a fractured leg.. but ken felt so damn bad about it. sigh! my dearest cousin Kenson! ken has always been the idol of my life. i put him as a yardstick when it comes to searching for the perfect guy. he is what i truly admire him to be. he is a perfectionist. only wanting the best, he went through the elite route in education, dunman to tjc to nus... became what i thought was perfect for him, a teacher. through this journey, he takes control of his life and steers it properly to make sure no mistake is made. he loves his family a lot. he is really an extinct species in our modern day society. really. until today, i have yet to see anyone who has come close to how.. perfect he is.u know, he said that if one day singapore were to be in a war, he wanna be the first to defend the nation.and now.. this is the first time i saw him so destroyed. sigh. such a strong character.. can fall down. and its just a small error, but he just couldn't take any flaws in his life. and this, is a scar for him. i just hope he will stand up again... he must have felt he let alot of people down. sigh. anyway seeing george working so hard for his grades also motivates me. those 2 brothers ar.. really really awesome people.

anyway, i really have a lot to learn from my dad. remembered earlier on, i said he striked a little money from jackpot at rws. today he treated some relatives, about 2 tables full of relatives. my mum's side also got invite. just close ones la. seeing all the yi yis and uncles happily chatting as though it was chinese new year... is really heartwarming. i mean, my dad could have just given red packets and call it quits. but he even had a luncheon to gather people together. and the most touching thing was when ahyi said how the happy ambience cheered her up despite ken's incident. and i had a lot of fun too, talking to my ahyi and cousins. and my uncles. i wouldn't have traded this happiness i felt for anything in the world. i just hope we do this more often.

my father's selflessness gives me hope. i do hope ken will stand up again soon.. [: maybe this incident might deem him as being slightly imperfect. but i feel, the imperfection has made his perfections stand out even more. makes him feel more human like.

I just wanna soak up the sun~

today has been an eventfully beautiful day! it didn't start very well though. woke up at 12 plus. waited for parents to come back with lunch. had lunch, and headed to haig road to get my ibanking done. (updates: maxi dress and postman bag bought!) then decided to buy 4D at cheers. lol! (updates: i didn't strike.) oh well. just trying my luck anyway. did pedi. i wanted to paint it green. but something told me i shud go for black to be safe. and i did. and shaped eyebrows. omgggg. too loong never shape.. and i really wanted to kill myself with the pain surging through my pores as she plucked those wild hair around eye area. think i'll try threading at where emma did hers. quite good and last also. humph. chionged home and settle payment and went to marine parade to meet hong choo and anita. so funny! i overshot 1 stop. and apparently, hc and anita alighted 1 stop earlier. lol! so when they said they were at block 72, i was like huh? its blk 50++ here. lol! and i walked about.. 45 minutes around marine parade and finally found the correct bus stop. LOL! hopeless .. ]: (note: Alb, i know u are sniggering, u asss!)

then we headed to ecp and rented a bike! so happy. i almost knocked into this girl ]: then i shouted "OH FUCKKKK" and she giggled. lol! cute sia. cycled to bedok jetty then we just sat there and look at the oil-stained sea and talked about.. life. sigh! i really really hope i can go to england exactly in 1 year's time! omg. yeah. looking at the clear sky (Except that, we can see a whole patch of dark clouds hovering CBD) sure reminds u that "the sky's the limit. that, u are not trapped in the small world u think u are. there is much more for u to discover out there!" the kind of feeling. abit denial, but i believe in it. i remember dipping into the hot tub at Clarendon, Sydney. clarendon was this, retreat.. we had this whole villa to ourselves.. and me and lorr's bedroom was at the attic! can see stars. and i remembered dipping into the fucking cold pool, look at the wilderness that surrounds us and think to myself, whenever i feel that my life sucks and theres only gonna be so much going on in my life, i must remember the sight i saw in that pool. because that view, where u can see wild kangaroos hopping, the lake, the trees after trees and the mountains.. you know theres so much more beyond what i think there is.

ok, lol! sidetracked! so anyway, we carried on when hongchoo's slippers GAVE WAY. lol!!! then she had to ride back barefooted while we scouted for slippers. then found a shop that sold cheapo slippers. another sidetrack: LOL! i mean, i used to go by these shops and wonder, pls la! who will ever buy slippers from here. x= OH WELL. shall bite my own words. so anyway, after that, we decided to move on to changi again. lol! its more tiring than i expected. but i loveeee looking at the trees along the way. they remind me of my fantasy! i dunno if i told people this before, but my perfect date goes like this: i meet my university boyfriend at the lawn of our beautiful white campuses (those u see in movies).. then the lawn has carpet grass. my date would be wearing one of those, shirt+vest combi with straight-cut jeans with brown shoes. then we'd meet at the entrance of our school gate and we'd kiss. then we'll hold hands and walk to the carpet-grassish lawn and under our favourite tree where we will lay our blanket. then i'll be in his arms and we'd be drinking tea/champagne and talking about how our day went. and cloud watching!

ok. ths isn't really completely irrelevant. i cant go to one of these white campus/carpet grass lawn places anymore since i've confirmed a place in sim. and the last time i checked, sim only has a jungle opposite its bus stop. ]: so unless my date is tarzan, i doubt im gonna have that perfect date. but cycling through ecp, i saw the perfect lawn for that perfect date!! though its quite retarded cus

1. the weather is fucking humid
2. lotsa cycling+noisy fucking kids (including me today) around
3. prolly alot of ants around. ]:

but yeah. so i felt happy looking at the grass and trees combo cus it reminded me of my fantasy. oh well! then we cycled past obs and almost towards the start of the road to changi village. and we u-turned. cycled back non-stop but stopped by long beach to make reservation. lol! for dinnnnnnerrrrr! we cycled back, returned the bikes.. and walked back to long beach with our jelly legs. luckily we had each other, if nt,i doubt i can survive. we ordered chilli crab and hor fun. and 3 fried buns. OMG. yummy as usual. loveeeee long beach food to the max. the girls loveeddd the buns. so we ordered again. hahahah! and we ended the meal with glutinous rice with coconut ice cream~~~~~~~~~ yummy to the max. shiok like hell. also guilty, cus the calories burnt have been put back.

i forgot how beautifully carefree it felt to cycle! i forgot how easily i smile when the breeze kiss my skin. i think im gonna do it sometime this week again. maybe with owl city songs plugged in! [: ok. such a pleasant day today. maybe i'm really a wild stallion deep inside my heart that has been cultured by the urban jungle!

oh well. shall go watch some family guy and sleep.

p/s: i would like to thank the foreign workers who cleaned up the sea! east coast park's sea is already dirty enough usually. but its fucking gross on the papers. the oil spill. and although can see the shiny shiny parts where theres still oil.. but i think its very efficient of them to clean up so much of the oil. we walked past some of the bags that were lying around and it stunk like fuck. its vomit-inducingly smelly. so imagined if they didnt clean it? sigh. we singaporeans only know how to talk and pay money to ppl to clean our mess up. but what if they werent there? who would we pay? ya? so really wanna thank them. sigh. to think we still despise them despite what they do for us. seriously.

soak up the sun

YESSSSSSSSSS. AM GOING TO GO CYCLING IN A FEW HOURS TIME! YESH!!!!!! [=

updates: am nt getting that bag le. getting this instead. POSTMAN bag!!

laziness.

i'm too lazy to blog. ]: PMS. plus, theres nothing to blog about. yesterday went to have lunch with tf @ starbucks. love cranberry and walnut toast with cream cheeze. yumzzz. just chilled and after that, went to SIM with reggie only to find out that we need to go back to SIM again next week. i might wanna do accounting with law. gotta check how to do that. after that, took a super duper long bus ride to jurong point to see reggie suffer her pain! MWHAHAHHAA. no la, she got her ears pierced too! yay!! 2 more days and i can remove my ear studs. plus its gonna be payday again! allowance day also! but i just joined "ji pa ban" .. its this community where u can see online shops over singapore in one place. under "usual sites" to sign up. and i actually have 14 items on my wishlist. but these 2, im getting.

i've always wanted to get a maxi dress. the one i saw at fep is.. satin. but $128. this is only $30. and ish nice. lovesss...


chio or what! lol!! $21 after discount.

although great singapore sales started already, but i've been so ... crazy about it for about 6 years now and its getting boring. cus the stuff on sale are usually not very worth getting. except maybe f21's GSS. or cotton on's. cus its dirt cheap. as for shops like topshop and selfridge, its alot of discount, but i still wont pay that amount for whatever material/designs they have on the sales rack. accessories maybe. but clothes.. very few attract me these days. oh well! so might as well splurge on online stuffs.

anyway, as reggie always have to remind me, im saving up for London~~ or a car~~ or just a rainy day. so, yup :)

and as for today, as been a day wasted? idk. movie marathon u can say. watched "The hangover" ZOMGGGG. ITS FUCKING HILARIOUS. omggggg. i really roared like mad. super super super funny. omgggggg. then watched a family guy episode in between. rented "scary movie" and "scary movie 4" on miotv. i know, " shirley, why dun dl?" well, because i dont rlly wanna wait.. and i sometimes like to watch my movies on a bigger screen and with better sound. omg. the japanese-speaking scene is always tickling my funny bone. fujitsu = yes. LOLOL! and the boy from ju-on! LOLOLOL! poor boy. then family guy-ed in between also. and watch drama. and then made french toast for dinner. cus my dad bought a loaf of bread last week. and today's the expiry date. what better way of using almost expired bread? FRENCH TOAST! my family dont eat brekkie at home one la. sometimes my father wants us to eat, so he buys. and no one eats. and we have to rush to finish the bread eventually. like the last time, to finish off the bread, we bought chilli crab. lol! oh well.

anyway, theres something i must blog about. everytime i look at the elmo soft toy, i'd think of someone who has suffered because of me. of course, if i had given him a chance, i'd be doing more injustice to him only. but then, the elmo toy just shows what kind of bad person i am. as much as i felt that i probably dont deserve any better in the future, but what about those who did me injustice in the past? shouldn't they be punished too? but i dont see that happening.. so well.. i know we cannot be so calculative in life, but the phrase "tit for tat" hasn't been thought about for nothing, has it?

oh well. and how lame can uss be la. im only working for 1 day next month. lol! but oh well, its not all a loss. its AIR SUPPLY concert!!!! "All out of love".. i just need to hear them sing that, and i am one happy girl! [:

one last thing, happy vesak day to all other buddhists in the world! i know, im a very un-devoted one.. but i still am one anyway. well, at least i dont do things against my morals. like min yi... who has been sentenced to 6 months jail. sigh. the thing is, so what if u shaved ur head and wear a robe and brown beads around you? i dont think its buddhism even if u did that when ur insides are as corrupted what the buddhist teachings has taught us against. so at least, i'm not the worst buddhist .. so its ok. thanks buddha, for making my heart calm whenever i scare myself. and although it feels like i only call upon you when im in dire straits. but thanks anyway for sometimes making me feel .. okay.

alright!! must settle ibanking thing. and i will have my maxi DRESS~

Young adult I am.

Hello. No poker tonight, at least not for now that is. today was a really good day! went out with chantel. just went for a nice lunch at this place called "Big O" at paragon. quite nice. plus got coupons, so q worth it. i liked the salmon. after that, walked around paragon while did some catching up. very nice relaxing walk. then we stopped by fish and co for key lime cheese cake. for high tea. very relaxing. talked about everything... then she had to work.. and i headed home for dinner. guilty or wadddd!!!! ]: need to start gyming alr. im going to start yoga-ing when school starts. [:

anyway, im gonna be on tv. lol! we were walking along orchard, when this tv crew just came forward to interview me! -blushes- Thank u ar!! hahahaha. jk la. just some razortv interview on whether i have a driver's license. and whether i still have a P Plate. and whether i have been bullied on the roads before .. and what i did. and i said "oh, i just swear" lol!!! fuck. i hope i wont get to see myself on tv. face normally already so fat liao. fuck. ]:

ok, so those who have been talking to me recently should have slowly gone nuts about me saying about life.. and how we're entering the life changing/ adulthood-stepping decade of our lives and how weird it is that by the end of this decade, i'd be typing on this blog having kids. HOW WEIRD AND BIZARREEEE!!! omg. O.O shocks me to think abt it. i mean, having sex is already quite mind-blowing, let alone.. offsprings. MY OFFSPRINGS. x= omggggggggggggggggggggggg.

so anyway, so currently, im confused. im confused about how my life should steer? what is considered normal? what is the stereotype. ok.. i know the stereotype. right now, the correct mould i should fall into is -

1. study
2. graduate with a bachelor
3. get a decent and steady job
4. have a constant group of girlfriends (a.k.a sex and the city/ desperate housewives/ bridget jones kind of girls.. who sip cosmos etc)
5.get a decent enough boyfriend who has a stable job
6. get married and have a mediocre sex life
7. have children and start paying for household expenses/taxes etc
8. retire and go into an old folks home.

ok, but reality check here:

1. i have stopped being geeky after i went through poly. so is it possible i will revert back to the muggertoad i once was?
2. yeah. i think i will but how long will it take?
3. i dont really want a decent job. i wanna be a travel journalist! i wanna be paid to travel and know about other people and their lifestyles!!!! i wanna be filled with knowledge! i dont wanna sit at a desk and deal with numbers. sigh.
4. i do have group of friends now. but as what i can see, we're slowly splitting and stuff. and new friends are coming in. so.... how constant?at least luckily emsy, me and sx have been q ok. so shud be able to last thru the next decade?
5. hmmmm. im leaving this section to fate and cupid. lol! i give up in finding my own love already.
6. refer to no. 5
7. i might adopt if i eventually dont get married. or like back-up plan, i wont mind getting sperms from a sperm bank. why not?
8. if best right, i'd retire and MOVE TO SWITZERLAND! best ending to my story eh?!

okok. so, my point being... when i was young, my aunt got me a set of encyclopedia. lol. there's this particular one called "all about people". so its all about biology and stuff.

but in between the biology bits, they insert sections where they introduce u about the different stages of a person's life.


the coloured person refers to the stage of life u're reading..

i used to read about the pre-teens and teenage part when i was in primary school, trying to figure out what life will be like. even in sec school, i will refer to it once in a while to know where i stood. its not a very in-depth/oxford-ish kind of book.

lol! teens. ok, lets just see how my teenage life was supposed to be:

1. im supposed to be getting a new body.. which i have gotten. boobs and pubic hair, CHECKED.

2. "teens are old enough to go out without their parents. for the first time, they can do things by themselves without any adults around" CHECKED.

3. "looking good is important to most teens. they need to keep in shape if they want to look their best" .. after my eyelid glue and contacts experience, CHECKED.

4. "Lots of exciting things are happening in teenagers' lives. but they need to study because their education will make a big difference in their future lives" CHECKED. but im quite guilty about the studying part.

5. "Most teens start dating. they also develop close friendships with other people their age. they sometimes seem to have little time for their families." the dates part, CHECKED. the families part, also CHECKED!

6. "Having a job for the first time can be fun, even if it is hardwork. it feels good having money you have earned yourself" CHECKED!

weeee~ i've lived my teenage life well, at least according to the book. weee~ ok. so, to get a rough guide on how i'm supposed to map out my "young adulthood" ... here goes:


ok. im looking forward to this bit. the travelling bit! ohhhh london, please let me go to u!


i do hope im not ging to live with my parents by the time im 30 though.. i DO have thoughts of moving out. but the idea doesnt work well in singapore, because honestly, how far can u shift in singapore? from simei to boon lay ar? HAHAHHA.

hint that i REALLY SHUD LEARN FRENCH AND SPANISH?!!?


WEE~ shall continue with yoga. maybe bowling? idk!

this was the bit i was saying. MARRIED. the scary M word. lol!

lol!!!!! that is what i should be looking out for now, i guess? a new job + a family + a new home.

ok lor. i know its lame to rely on an encyclopedia meant for young children for the road map of the next 10 years of my life. but when you get confused.. sometimes, the simpler the solution, the better.

ok. phew! finally blogged. shiook feeling. shall.... watch FRIENDS! and sleep!

p/s: Guess how much this is? $60,000? nope. $6,000? nope. $600? nope. $60. nope. not even close. only $ fucking 6! [: WOOOTS

ok byee~

Envious.

Social comparing once again. was looking at facebook profiles. im no longer envious of people and their hawt boyfriends. im envious of

1. sharon and her switzerland trip T.T
2. Calister and her russia trip T.T

soooooooo lucky.

i've complained life's boring. nw i know what to fill it with!! i shall watch ALL of friends! 10 seasons!

My new quest

i'm going to practise and perfect this very-quick-singing part of kris allen's "live like we're dying"..

Yeah, gotta start
Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta Live Like We're Dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying

try finding the song... lol. its q hard. x= woootsie! the last song i tried to learn, was the rap part for "low".. q failure. hope to suceed since this is easier than that.

pretend that this is an art gallery.

These are just works of talent. [: Davinci would have been proud of me and fregz if he saw these. [: enjoy the trip~

Guard the gnome!

today feels like a typical school day .. went to serangoon to return robe.. and i took the studio pic. omg. i havent seen it. can only see next monday when i collect it. im pretty sure it'd be cui cus the photographer's assistant kept making sure i stood still in a certain angle, which i knew wouldn't be flattering. basically whole face faced straight at the camera. u know, i need to tilt head to make face look slimmer. but no, the whole face just.. centre. omg. sure fucked and fat face. omggggg. ]= $99 gone... fuck. damn. but oh well. after that, went to lan with martin, nei and anita at dhoby. first time played protect the gnome part. lol. and we're damn cui can... the first campaign, took 4 times to complete only the part 2 leh. lol! so not our mojo.

guess who protected the gnome?

hahaha. omg. then went to meet hc, ade and amanda for dindin. finally can eat ribs from cafe cartel... but was eating in a rush cus we thought movie was at 8. turns out shrek 4 -3D was at 9.... the 2D was at 8. so.. we just nua for 1 hour at the ARCADE. totally poly times. played bishi bashi with the boys.. since we've completed the 22 stages before, we didnt bother change more tokens to complete. so we just played basketball... me and nei! best team. passed all round! finally hit 500+ this time! we're aiming for 600!! and played cooking master II! lol! then watched the movie again. and i was so inspired by pinocchio and his bitchiness for betraying his father, i changed my bloglink. lol! but the picture doesnt make sense ar.. oh well. shall see what i can do about it. LOVE SHREK 4! esp 3D! brings u to another world lor. and gingy, small yet fiery. loves!

then we parted ways.. and .. yup.

sidenote: i've learnt to stop online dating once and for all. one experience is enough. no more.

10 years

omg yes! it is still BUGGING me. 10 years is the length of time since primary 4 to today. thats 1 decade for u. 10 years ago, i probably didn't see myself the way i am now. hmmm... but then, back to topic. while i was taking a shower, i was thinking (yes, albert, i agree with u that showering is the best time to think).. that actually those 10 years went pass really fast. ]: and i came to realise that, with any luck, by the end of this length of this time again, im going to have children (with reference to my mummy who had me when she was 27) x= thats practically 17 years old in the past decade. O.O but u know, its time to stop playing already.

a fresh start will begin tomorrow. i need to start adapting to the sleep early, wake up early routine now. because i realised that, because of my irregular sleeping hours, i always doze off in lectures. this time round, no more. its going to be secondary school again! its going to be mugging fuck all the way. of course, i will definitely slot in social time and blogging time. this time, there will no longer be frills. no more going to school just to joke around and fool around. and i've decided to stop putting makeup to school. ugly then ugly. but of course, basic grooming routines will be installed from now. eyebrow trimming every 2 weeks or so. regular pedis.. and im not going to be headached about what to wear... its going to be tees and skirt/shorts/jeans. no more.. lame mixtures.. leggings etc. im going to be serious about gunning for the LONDON trip. going to enquire more about it.. so it will be clearer.




the pun for this picture is totally intended! firstly, harry potter took place in london. daniel radcliffe is from uk. rowan atkinson is from uk. and so is mr bean! so... yup.

and the hometown on topshop. and of course, marks and spencer!

im going to learn french. because if i really do sucessfully go to london for a year.. from there, i am DEFINITELY touring around europe. for sure. lol! omg. really hope i can experience a different kinda life for one year of my child-bearing/ family-raising-decade. lol!! YESSS LONDON! my world travelling wish, coming true?!

and im going to plan the future assuming i will not have a family/ children within the next decade. means, right now, im going to start reading national geographic/ buy the national geographic book! yeahh!! being freeeee sure is goood.

Love all, trust a few and do wrong to no one.

heyhey! went out with morgan and the girls today! lol. met up for sushi tei lunch and heaed to toa payoh swimming complex for a carnival. morgan's aunt was competing. hahaha. its been long since i've been to any carnivals. lol! anyway, what i wanna say is, i really need to take my hat off some of the swimmers! it was a mass swim competition.. and there were few who were.. plump or old. but they still took part and raced against their counterparts. and although they were very very lagged behind, like even after everyone finished the race, they didn't give up and made it to the end. i thought that was some bravery i never would be able to take out. really applauded for them. anyway we played carnival games, like throw the beanbag and hit the cans thing. lol! i won one game where i had to throw this frog toy and it has to hook onto the wall. lol! and i won tattoos. x=

hahah! but we couldnt hit the cans. and the old granny in front of us, did it with 1 beanbag. i couldnt hit all even with 2! so pekchek! but so nice to see old people so happy and young! i wanna be a hip old person when i become old. i don't wanna be a pain in the arse to the society.

and there were so many hunks to oogle at! hahah. xin heard them say "kids' race" and we keep seeing so many 6 pec hunks swimming. actually the commentator was saying "heats' race" or sth. lol!!! but really eye-candied like mad! LOL! hey, nothing wrong right! still single ma! shows that im straight! hahaha. anyway pics:






cheering for number 6! lol!






so after that, we were supposed to go k! but then, e promotion wasn't on.. so we didn't know what to do. sat outside the toilet for almst half an hour.. then hung around the marina square's bowling alley for almost half an hour. finally decided to steamboat at bugis... i keep eating xiao bai cai and carrots and luncheon meat! v yummy!



loved the mushies!!

ok la. im gonna shower, shall blog about something i've just read laters. ciao

It's not such a bad thing afterall

i can't sleep. need to blog my peace. realised that, alot of people, namely ___, has a lot of jobs now. prolly earning big bucks. u know what? yea, i'll prolly be envious at month end.. but what the hell? i realised because of work, i haven't been able to think like myself. i've been nothing but a monster filled to the brim with jealousy.. and all my emotions have been tied to that ball of jealousy. and it does make me temperamental, which makes me a fucked up friend and a sucky daughter. and i've been, nothing but a whiny person.. and the thing i hate most is to whine. it makes me all weak and needy and a parasite.

but thank god for this break. i know i've been whining about being soo bored and life having nothing to look forward to. i've been hanging out with friends, like alb.. reggie.. tf.. emsy.. and soon, sx.. morgan and the girls... and so on. and my brain can finally take a deep breath! no more smiling despite being miserable. no more pretending to be friends anymore. no more having to be infuriated by fucked up attitudes. at least for these few weeks. i feel like just.. stop working and slack the rest of my days. but i dont want my brain to go mouldy. so, i'll keep it going. plus i need to go "back to school" shopping soon. so need the money.

i dont care about ___. yea, maybe i do cus afterall, best friends for so long? yeah. u're really the first friend problem i've ever faced. i really can't be bothered with u. u call me when u need me and totally ignore the fuck out of me when u don't. wow. u know what i've never told u? u are a bimbo. u think that ur ideas are always correct. u totally "eeee" at people's ideas u dont think is good. hey, hello! its THEIR opinion, who are u to "eeee" at them? really insensitive? and the questions u ask are really eyes-rollingly pathetic, but i never despise them. but u THINK that u are SMART. thats what bugs me. u're not. and when people tell u things, u sway. i know i sway too, but u... u just change 180 degrees without even thinking if what the person has decided for herself is suitable for u. and u start making noise. unnecessary noise. and then, later, when i tell u to think about it and u think for urself, u realise its not correct for u ... have a goddamn mind of ur own. and ur bf.. i used to think u guys were perfect. he, is worse than garbage. fucking fucking worse than an ogre. i'd rather be an old maid and a virgin for THE REST OF MY LIFE assuming i'm going to live 100 years on this planet, than to even be his friend! what kind of shitty fucked up bf tells u that he stopped loving u years ago. and u still gave him a chance? i used to sympathize with u. but now, im washing my hands of u. cus i've realised that u are only making use of whoever u need. remember u were the one who started hating C? then in the end, after influencing the whole group of us to hate her, u suddenly became her best friend? wow. i dont mind being the scapegoat.. and i've no regrets letting her knw that i dun really like her. its just u... really really ... fucked la. seriously. u realised that u dont really have friends, do u? u only have ur bf. then me. then ocassionally, u need a listening ear and u complain to the group. plus the only person i'd ever see u msg, is him and ocassionally, people from ur workplace. u do realise that, don't u? i pity u. because u always see things in such a narrow point of view. u think what u know is alot and u think thats all u need to know. u dont even know who michael phelps is?! i feel sad for u. because life is actually bigger than u think and because u think u know it all and u refuse to.. learn anything else outside ur course of studies, u are not able to appreciate it. i know i sound like my life is perfect.. and as if im a know-it-all. im not. no one is. i'm just telling u what i HONESTLY think of you. blah. seriously. all the best to u. theres no more M to help u in the future. im sure u'll find someone who will. but good luck on that, because u're not getting any votes from me. the end.

fuck. now im filled with anger. blah! gonna try ta sleep. shit.

That's not an ogre, it's just your father's face painted green!

Had a great and relaxing day today, as always when i hang out with the beloved Emsy! she gets prettier by the day, unlike me! but anyways, met up with her at about 12 plus. went to book tix. wanted to watch "the backup plan" cus i really love j.lo shows. she's damn sexy! but it was 1.30am. darn! so we watched Shrek 4. after that, went to get lunch at ichiban boshi. it was nice leh. lol! shall go bark soon! then went to catch shrek. I LOVED IT!!!! I LOVED THE MOVIE. omg. one of these days, i shall have a shrek movie marathon! omgggggg. really nice. pinocchio and gingy are the cutest! omg. pinocchio!!!!!!! a little spoiler here.. my favourite line of the whole movie is "That's not an ogre, it's just your father's face painted green! ".. and pinocchio said it! such a bitch but a cute little wooden piece of puppet nonetheless! and i still don't like puss in boots. lol! omggg. so in love with them!


after the movie, we went to goof around spotlight and daiso. i bought some stuff from daiso, as usual. basically, a "welcome" sign and a pretty box. lol! emsy felt like having ice cream.. so we went to swensons.. and i felt like having pizza. and that was dinner for me. full of guilt now. lol! then headed to her place since she's home alone. and we just watched ALOT of siobhan! ALOT ALOT OF SIOBHAN ahahahha! but she's good! but i still love casey although he's out. then we just camwhored all the way while hanson was singing for us in the background! i love emma lau! she's a darling! no wonder so many guys are after her...! ok. enough said, pictures!






loots:

pretty box

earrings holder

welcome sign

and graduation pictures from bro's SLR:



and last but not least,

he forgot to tag me for this favourite pic of mine!!! why? because it has KEY LIME cheesecake from fish and co! walao, best cheezecake in the world, i tell u!


and before i go, i never dreamt the day augustine goh will email me this:

Hi Shirley,
though you may not see it, but I do want to stress that you were a good editor and did an excellent job.
I have to be tough on some of you to make sure that the project completes within the required time and standard.
And yes, I will take up your offer for help as I believe you have a passion for magazine or publication production.
May want to explore this passion further by taking up some courses in the future.
Possible world renowned writer in the making.
I will get the juniors to call on you if you don't mind and maybe you can give them some idea and advice. (Year1 or 2 this year)

regards
Augustine Goh

wow.

p/p/s: did i mention im going to watch shrek again on monday?! HAHAHHA! goodbye money and hello happiness!

p/p/p/s: my article didn't get into CLEO. oh well. thanks albert once again!