its officially 1st july 2010 today. half the year has passed. oh. half the year has passed.
summary:
Academically: disappointing. didn't even get any phonecalls from all 3 local unis. made a lot of mistakes when it came to applying and now, still bitter about it. came out of SP. and came into SIM.
Socially: luckily i still have my good friends to keep me up when i'm down. although when it comes to chilling, i definitely have had a wonderful clubbing life thus far though. but, can see social life dwindling. especially when all the universities start, thats when you can really see how the social life is gonna turn. everyone will be making new friends. old friends will go and new friends will come. but socially, my life hasn't been too bad. just gotta see the true colours of some friends.
romantically: up and down, up and down and back to square one. just can say that i've become more defensive.. but after so many ppl encouraging me, im not giving up ba. but at least gave first kiss away alr. i mean, yea, i sound like a slut. but although its not a true love's kiss (o.O) but then.. at least i can slowly look lor. haha. whatever la. but yeahh. at least now.. i'll choose and not just go for it because i need a bf because everyone else have one. dont wanna hurt anyone.
economically: pathetic.. BUT at least i started saving. now, thats an improvement!
hmmmm.. idk. fuck. damn mood swing. its like.. im now feeling happy leh. WTF! im supposed to blog about something serious. LOL.. stupid ass heart. anyhow issue feelings one sia. lame .. hahha.ok la. gg off first.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
it was a LONG day. pms madness.
Sigh. really fucking hate pms. super duper makes me a nasty person to be with lor. i started the day feeling really fucking fucking blue and depressed. plus the weather was so gloomy. i mean, i've got nothing to look forward to anymore. definitely not as much as i did in SP. like, i feel, almost nothing. and so, i whined to albsie and reggie. she's working so no replies. but albsie, well, he's a true buddy indeed. sorry leh. cus i was really almost crying in the train. over nothing. its just that, i really wanna go for the camp because i feel like im suffocating in my own world. i feel like going to have some fun but it crashes with my bridging. and since 1 year's stuff is squeezed into 1 month, missing out 3 days is like missing out 3 weeks of lessons. and im scared i fail because it really does shave off 1 year. and if i fail, let's just say that my parents and relatives will be even more disappointed in me. although my parents never say it, but i can feel that they are a tad disappointed that i couldn't make it to SMU. so, i really need to prove it to them that i can excel and it was because i was lazy and having too much fun in SP that i didn't do well enough to get into smu. so, i've been working hard lor. i tell u, even for the first 2 weeks in SP, i never even do my tutorials/ revision EVERY NIGHT. and now, although we're into the 2nd week in SIM, but i'm doing my tutorials every night and revising. although i still make mistakes.. but yeah. and the thing is, i am not even mugging reluctantly. it just feels like the inner muggertoad that has been buried by tons of fun and defiance has emerged. and im like tying my hair and actually ENJOYING doing my math homework last night. honestly, the first chapter was just a re-cap and it felt fuckin good to do the homework effortlessly and get the answers all correct. but the thing is, apart from studies and my very-much-thinning social life, i really haven't got alot to look forward to. i know, i've been saying that i like this guy right. and i think its part of pms. pms, is like fart. a small spark into the fart, and it becomes a big fire.
well, last night i was talking to an old friend whom i got to know frm icq a long time ago. we've been chatting on/ off and he's from denmark. very funny guy. and i told him about the sim foc/ bridging thing. gosh. he said, we should just have as much fun as we can while we leave. he said he thinks that i've always been too serious about things. he's 25 and he said when he was my age, he was wayyy crazier than he is now. and he thinks he's crazier than me now. ]: wished i could be so carefree and not think so much. but he lives in goddamn europe. and they drink beer after an exam. i just.. have dinner and watch movie. i wanna drink also. realised it has been ages since i had any pubbing session. now that drinking queen is back in singapore.. omg [= awesome. feel like pubbing. but anyway, on that train, i just look at my life now and realise, how i wished, i could breath fresher air. i was SOOO close to just crossing the platform, headed to the airport and get an air ticket to switzerland. i dont even mind travelling alone lor. in fact, i will definitely travel alone once in my life. hopefully to switzerland. but u know, theres 3 things holding me back:
1. my family.
2. my really good friends.
3. my future.
if i just ran away now.. i'd be happy for a while. right? what about the rest of my life? well, i might as well save up.. which i already am.. and maybe i can take swiss lessons also. then, go maybe on an itinerary. idk. i just felt damn damn damn depressed and emotional. just feel like.. if i died, no one will miss me? that kinda feeling. it truly sucks. hopefully, its just me. and my pms. super hate pms. u know, thanks albsie for the words of encouragement. i guess i needed a nice, good stroll. like the one i took home. and friends. oh well lar. i shall go off first. im going to blog about my day on the next post. not gonna mix all that good things with negativity. ciao.
well, last night i was talking to an old friend whom i got to know frm icq a long time ago. we've been chatting on/ off and he's from denmark. very funny guy. and i told him about the sim foc/ bridging thing. gosh. he said, we should just have as much fun as we can while we leave. he said he thinks that i've always been too serious about things. he's 25 and he said when he was my age, he was wayyy crazier than he is now. and he thinks he's crazier than me now. ]: wished i could be so carefree and not think so much. but he lives in goddamn europe. and they drink beer after an exam. i just.. have dinner and watch movie. i wanna drink also. realised it has been ages since i had any pubbing session. now that drinking queen is back in singapore.. omg [= awesome. feel like pubbing. but anyway, on that train, i just look at my life now and realise, how i wished, i could breath fresher air. i was SOOO close to just crossing the platform, headed to the airport and get an air ticket to switzerland. i dont even mind travelling alone lor. in fact, i will definitely travel alone once in my life. hopefully to switzerland. but u know, theres 3 things holding me back:
1. my family.
2. my really good friends.
3. my future.
if i just ran away now.. i'd be happy for a while. right? what about the rest of my life? well, i might as well save up.. which i already am.. and maybe i can take swiss lessons also. then, go maybe on an itinerary. idk. i just felt damn damn damn depressed and emotional. just feel like.. if i died, no one will miss me? that kinda feeling. it truly sucks. hopefully, its just me. and my pms. super hate pms. u know, thanks albsie for the words of encouragement. i guess i needed a nice, good stroll. like the one i took home. and friends. oh well lar. i shall go off first. im going to blog about my day on the next post. not gonna mix all that good things with negativity. ciao.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Dilenma!
omfg! knnccb. fuck bridging. zzzz. howwwww? ok. here's the situation:
sim is organising a freshman orientation camp. 12 to 14th july. which happens to be on my bridging days. fucking hell. should i sacrifice 2 days of econs and 1 day of maths to go for the camp? i mean, its gonna be the last freshman camp in my life leh. i feel, that i should go. but the lessons are quite crucial! somemore alot will be missed if i miss the 3 days. but then, 3 days of fun leh. somemore, my life is fucking at a standstill at this moment. omggggg. i really wanna go leh. i think i will. fuck bridging la. i'll compensate it ba. x= as in, work harder after the camp. but thing is, i also dunno anyone who's gg to the camp. but i guess.... omg. what should i do???
gahhhh. but what if i fail bridging? cus of this. omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sim is organising a freshman orientation camp. 12 to 14th july. which happens to be on my bridging days. fucking hell. should i sacrifice 2 days of econs and 1 day of maths to go for the camp? i mean, its gonna be the last freshman camp in my life leh. i feel, that i should go. but the lessons are quite crucial! somemore alot will be missed if i miss the 3 days. but then, 3 days of fun leh. somemore, my life is fucking at a standstill at this moment. omggggg. i really wanna go leh. i think i will. fuck bridging la. i'll compensate it ba. x= as in, work harder after the camp. but thing is, i also dunno anyone who's gg to the camp. but i guess.... omg. what should i do???
gahhhh. but what if i fail bridging? cus of this. omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, June 28, 2010
i guess i overthink-ed it.
hmm, well it has been a very boring day today. woke up. ate curry. went to school. came home. ate dinner. watched tv. msn-ed. did homework. now online again.
that summarizes my day. sigh! how exciting.
hmm, maybe i really think too much. doubt he likes me. its just that, looking forward to msn convos has been a thing in the past. the last time i looked forward.. was actually for sly. but it reminds me more of secondary school days when i really will look forward to this nickname "..." to come online. its steven's ... hahahahaha! oh well. i guess i just miss the feeling. hmm, cus he's online but not talking to me. really really think too much. ok la. i shall just.. hang around before going off to bed. cant wait for tmr anyway! HOO!
updates: he just msn-ed me! hoohoo! but its about soccer again. oh well. hahah. x=
that summarizes my day. sigh! how exciting.
hmm, maybe i really think too much. doubt he likes me. its just that, looking forward to msn convos has been a thing in the past. the last time i looked forward.. was actually for sly. but it reminds me more of secondary school days when i really will look forward to this nickname "..." to come online. its steven's ... hahahahaha! oh well. i guess i just miss the feeling. hmm, cus he's online but not talking to me. really really think too much. ok la. i shall just.. hang around before going off to bed. cant wait for tmr anyway! HOO!
updates: he just msn-ed me! hoohoo! but its about soccer again. oh well. hahah. x=
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Lazy day sunday afternoon
omgomgomg! i had an exciting sunday afternoon!!!! 2 aliens landed at the porch of my house and they invited me to go to Mars with them! so i hopped on and i toured the universe until now. just reached home. thank you my alien friends, so long and farewell!
well, anyhow, while i was on my universe tour, my twin sister, to whom i share thoughts with, was having a boring but relaxing sunday afternoon. this is what she thought:
woke up today just in time for lunch. had char kway for lunch. believe it or not, i havent had black char kway for about... 5 years or more. really. sigh. missed it like mad. and i enjoyed every bit of it! so after that, just lazed around watching japan hour. omg. omg. omg. reminded me of why i wanted to study hard and earn alot of money. gosh. the nature.. the hot springs.. the warm hospitality! [: oishiiii~ so after that, decided to go parkway to buy bro's present and mum's shampoo. well, i got both already. i walked to parkway and back home. its nice to see how much has changed. hahaha. was sooooooooo tempted to buy fries until i remembered that i had a goal to hit.. so i resisted. came home, and watched ch 8 drama. then watch mr bean movie. then watched bridget jones. sigh. bridget always brings out the best in me. she always reminds me to find someone who'd like me just the way i am. like mark darcy. [: i really can never get sick of bridget jones! never!
oh well. i just think its wishful thinking on my part. i doubt im his type and i doubt he's my type. will just go with the flow la~ and anyway, classes tmr. fuck fuck fuck. its everyday from this week on. omg. ]: looking forward to tues - toy story 3 movie outing! and looking forward to saturday! outing with coussies!!!!! awesum! very scared for econs. i dont really understand much. im merely remembering. sigh!
oh well. i shall sleep latest at 1am. then have a good start to the week tmr. shall maybe pop by the gym! byeeee~
well, anyhow, while i was on my universe tour, my twin sister, to whom i share thoughts with, was having a boring but relaxing sunday afternoon. this is what she thought:
woke up today just in time for lunch. had char kway for lunch. believe it or not, i havent had black char kway for about... 5 years or more. really. sigh. missed it like mad. and i enjoyed every bit of it! so after that, just lazed around watching japan hour. omg. omg. omg. reminded me of why i wanted to study hard and earn alot of money. gosh. the nature.. the hot springs.. the warm hospitality! [: oishiiii~ so after that, decided to go parkway to buy bro's present and mum's shampoo. well, i got both already. i walked to parkway and back home. its nice to see how much has changed. hahaha. was sooooooooo tempted to buy fries until i remembered that i had a goal to hit.. so i resisted. came home, and watched ch 8 drama. then watch mr bean movie. then watched bridget jones. sigh. bridget always brings out the best in me. she always reminds me to find someone who'd like me just the way i am. like mark darcy. [: i really can never get sick of bridget jones! never!
oh well. i just think its wishful thinking on my part. i doubt im his type and i doubt he's my type. will just go with the flow la~ and anyway, classes tmr. fuck fuck fuck. its everyday from this week on. omg. ]: looking forward to tues - toy story 3 movie outing! and looking forward to saturday! outing with coussies!!!!! awesum! very scared for econs. i dont really understand much. im merely remembering. sigh!
oh well. i shall sleep latest at 1am. then have a good start to the week tmr. shall maybe pop by the gym! byeeee~
Saturday, June 26, 2010
since primary school..
suddenly saw augusta posting she and her bf's pictures.. then reminded me to search for my primary school friends. omg. people like mabel koh.. was made to excel la. head prefect, then went to SNGS, then went to HCJC, then went to NUS. then kim sum also so smart. gosh. it feels like everyone who graduated from ij oln are either:
1. smart
2. pretty
3. arty farty with big social circles
or they are simply all of the above. its like .. im not really much of a progress. like, instead, got bad to worse sia. i really got no face to go for primary school gathering. luckily, i was quite a social outcast then.. so im not close to anyone in particular. i lost all contacts when i shifted house. so i totally broke off contact with everybody until something called friendster came up. guess fate wanted to save me from the embarrassment of keeping in touch with them! sigh!! its like they're either socially or relationshiply or academically successful! really envious. hmmm..
1. smart
2. pretty
3. arty farty with big social circles
or they are simply all of the above. its like .. im not really much of a progress. like, instead, got bad to worse sia. i really got no face to go for primary school gathering. luckily, i was quite a social outcast then.. so im not close to anyone in particular. i lost all contacts when i shifted house. so i totally broke off contact with everybody until something called friendster came up. guess fate wanted to save me from the embarrassment of keeping in touch with them! sigh!! its like they're either socially or relationshiply or academically successful! really envious. hmmm..
bimbotic once again
once again, i went to forever21.com again. and so many so many loves. and this time, im thinking of it with relative to schoolwear.
chio shorts! im still into stripes leh. very gap!
zomgggg. chio dressss!! so pretty! the preens also very very nice! elegant! zomgggg.
very school-ish leh! very boyish also i feel. naise!
awesomeeee ring!!! [:
simple but nice tote bag!
looks comfy enough for school. plus shud be easy to match also!
zomggggggggggggggggg. i loveeeeeee this dresss!
this tank top, very very school-ish leh. easy to match. in fact, can match with the shorts above!
sigh! im a sucker for anything with angel wings. even tattoos! loves to the max!!! somemore usually accessories are quite cheap one! hahaha.
if only money wasn't an object!!!!! if only lor... thats why, must work hard for UOL! WOOHOO!!! [: am motivated to work hard! and curb all temptations to eat junk food. hahaha. oui~
omg. he did msn me. but okok. i shall not think too much lar. afterall, it really will be complicated if we do.. have anything at all. oh well~ lalala.
chio shorts! im still into stripes leh. very gap!
zomgggg. chio dressss!! so pretty! the preens also very very nice! elegant! zomgggg.
very school-ish leh! very boyish also i feel. naise!
awesomeeee ring!!! [:
simple but nice tote bag!
looks comfy enough for school. plus shud be easy to match also!
zomggggggggggggggggg. i loveeeeeee this dresss!
this tank top, very very school-ish leh. easy to match. in fact, can match with the shorts above!
sigh! im a sucker for anything with angel wings. even tattoos! loves to the max!!! somemore usually accessories are quite cheap one! hahaha.if only money wasn't an object!!!!! if only lor... thats why, must work hard for UOL! WOOHOO!!! [: am motivated to work hard! and curb all temptations to eat junk food. hahaha. oui~
omg. he did msn me. but okok. i shall not think too much lar. afterall, it really will be complicated if we do.. have anything at all. oh well~ lalala.
economics is ... a bottomless well.
i was doing my tutorial just now. and i was re-reading my notes. and there were endless of questions running through my head which i couldn't find answers to in the notes. its like, there seem to be alot of loopholes in all these theories. the worse is, the same thing can be referred to by many different words and symbols. but they all just mean the same thing! gosh. so confused. its like, i get more confused by the chapter u know. maybe im just too sian to analyse. i think i will re-read tomorrow. fucked. sometimes i wonder, if im really even made to do finance or accounting. omfg. as Dr zhang, my lecturer, said.. this is just a piece of cake. if u can't understand the economics now, then it will only get tougher from here. omfg. i just hope, i can make it through ba.
sigh. i have a feeling that i might.. like somebody. its still too early to tell. good thing he didn't talk to me tonight. phew! i think i don't like him la... just feel he's quite a good companion to talk to. but i think if we're ever together, its gonna be a bit... complicated. lol. feels good saying it out. ok. just hope its an infatuation. X=
sigh. i have a feeling that i might.. like somebody. its still too early to tell. good thing he didn't talk to me tonight. phew! i think i don't like him la... just feel he's quite a good companion to talk to. but i think if we're ever together, its gonna be a bit... complicated. lol. feels good saying it out. ok. just hope its an infatuation. X=
Stay home saturday
yup, its another stay home saturday and i am not even sick or bored of this! hahaha. ok, i was supposed to go out with alvin. but he had work last minute. oh well. i was fucking sleepy anyway. i slept at 4am again leh. shit. it has been 4, 5am for days! i must change la. fuck. woke up and so paiseh, cus my bro was having tuition. looked like shit when i came out. luckily i didnt fart or what. i really didnt know of his existence. gahh. then just laid on the fuckin couch and watched tv. until lunch came. then after that, i just lazed on the couch. watched alot of dramas. some old cheena drama. then my fave drama. zhen ai wu di. then aircon man came and fixed the aircon and i just helped abit. after that, i mopped the floor and ate magnum gold and watch more tv. then my parents went out. lol. they went to isetan to eat free jap food. i very lazy to dress up laaa. hahaha. my bro went out for some party. so left me alone at home.. just chatting on msn, blogging, listening to 987fm now. feel like clubbbbbbbbbbbbingz. actually i wanted to not have any dinner, since i didnt burn calories ... until i watched "wo yao dang shi shen" on xinmsn. fuck. damn hungry. so went ta fried noodles. and was satisfied. [:
well, just the other day, i went to weigh in, which i havent done so in MONTHS cus the damn weighing scale spoilt. and i lost, about.. 3 to 4kg since i last weighed in.. which was prolly in feb? or march. o.o omg la. imagine if i didnt eat popeyes and all the calories-laden food in my life. omg. fuck. hahaha. although i always say that i wanna lose weight, but i really cant resist and i end up eating calories-laden food. but quite surprising to even lose weight. ok la. i shall go gym from this week onwards although i feel my period's coming soon. one thing bad about losing weight is that the boobs also deflate. lol. oh well.
its like im really too broke to even wanna spend money on details that i didn't used to think was material enough to worry about eg. transport.
im thoroughly enjoying my stay home saturday! plus it has been pouring lately, so it really sucks to be out there in the rain anyway.
anyway i've been too lazy to read the news or wad already. and my spelling is getting more and more atrocious. i seriously must change. just joined this forum for writers to be. hopefully my writing bug will come back into my system! sigh! but the thing is, i suck at writing for the sake of writing. im more used to writing because i want to. hmm, oh well. i have to do homework sia. ]: damn sian. ciao.
well, just the other day, i went to weigh in, which i havent done so in MONTHS cus the damn weighing scale spoilt. and i lost, about.. 3 to 4kg since i last weighed in.. which was prolly in feb? or march. o.o omg la. imagine if i didnt eat popeyes and all the calories-laden food in my life. omg. fuck. hahaha. although i always say that i wanna lose weight, but i really cant resist and i end up eating calories-laden food. but quite surprising to even lose weight. ok la. i shall go gym from this week onwards although i feel my period's coming soon. one thing bad about losing weight is that the boobs also deflate. lol. oh well.
its like im really too broke to even wanna spend money on details that i didn't used to think was material enough to worry about eg. transport.
im thoroughly enjoying my stay home saturday! plus it has been pouring lately, so it really sucks to be out there in the rain anyway.
anyway i've been too lazy to read the news or wad already. and my spelling is getting more and more atrocious. i seriously must change. just joined this forum for writers to be. hopefully my writing bug will come back into my system! sigh! but the thing is, i suck at writing for the sake of writing. im more used to writing because i want to. hmm, oh well. i have to do homework sia. ]: damn sian. ciao.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
promise
i swear to not buy anything that i just see at an impulse for the month of july. my debit card bill is FUCKING scary for the month of june. OMG! its record high. lets just say, it git 4 digits. x: omggggggggggggggg. i already sacrificed the fucking chio brown bag from online leh.. the spree ended today... and i didnt even take a second glance at it. omgggggggggggggggggggggggggg. its eating my insides.
please fate, don't let me see anymore chio stuff for july! must... resist...
how am i supposed to survive on a measly $450 allowance. somemore, $100 transport, $50 for phonebills and $80 for savings. T.T
please fate, don't let me see anymore chio stuff for july! must... resist...
how am i supposed to survive on a measly $450 allowance. somemore, $100 transport, $50 for phonebills and $80 for savings. T.T
Welcome to habbo hotel!
Heyyy! firstly, theres nothing much to blog today, except that tomorrow will be my last day at USS! YES! im feeling a tinge of sadness cus i cant work for concerts and stuff. but i'd rather miss it. seriously, sometimes these guests come in and treat u like fuck lor, i tell u. oh well, so heres a little momento:
goodbye, shirley the casual.
the only interesting thing today was that ryan foo and his mum came to join us for dinner. ryan foo that clown. [: we went to this claypot restaurant near my place. they sell this, chicken-stuffed-into-pig-stomach soup. which i thought was very smelly. the pig smell very strong. but then, we ate this prawn porridge, which was damn awesome. and its $18 for a fuckin huge portion!!! can feed, 6 people!!! i wanna eat there again!
ok. another thing to talk about: habbo hotel. i just went back to habbo hotel last night. i went until 5am! LOL! cus nathan's friend, gen li, also played. so he ask me play also! LOL. and we both played from 3am until 5am. then my mum came in and nagged. LOL. it really is a walk down memory lane. although me, bro, lorr and lionel used to play when i was in sec 2.. and we played habbo uk. we were quite dua pai then! im serious. cus we made friends with these uk ppl who were q influential then in habbo. and i even became this guy's wife. i remember the lame wedding ceremony lor. but then, thanks to them, i got HC. HC means habbo club. and u have to pay real money to get it. and if u get it, u're automatically "cool". everyone starts sucking up to u. yup. but then, that time we wanted to get. but we only can buy if we're in uk. anyway, my "husband" really spends alot of real money on habbo leh. i remember his username: hubbabubba234. LOL. but he got banned. and so did his brother and sister and his sister's "husband". lol! those times were crazily funny i tell u. we'd make restaurants or cafes or modelling agencies and have a ball of fun. super cute one. but addictive. i stopped playing cus of maple.. and also, when our supports were banned, no more money, no mroe fun. we heard they were jailed for cheating habbo money leh. but i think its fake. oh well. anyway... i doubt i'll go back after today. cus right, just now, this boy came to flirt with me. then when i asked for his asl.. he was goddamn 14 years old. o.o lol! okie, so pictures for memories!
my character: pillybaxto
lol! this is the expression for :o .. the shocker look. cute ar
:)
see?!?! the best part about habbo isnt HC club nor being pretty. sometimes we dress up ugly and disturb ppl! hahaha .. like we'll take part in beauty contest dressed like this
or this
these are my pets! all courtesy from my "ex husband".. LOL
btw, pets/ furniture must be bought with real money one leh. hahahahhhha!!! i was such a whore last time. lol. but i didnt do anything funny with him. although he's brit. hahaha. he was a nice guy until he MIA. luckily didnt have feelings or wad. ahhaha.
my room! i used to be fuckin rich one. these are all considered norms. i used to have HC sofas which are actually rares and very expensive. then, i think i got sian and i gave them away. lol!
my toilet
haiz! those were the days when i was something in habbo. now i go in, like sai liddat. and thats my "ex-husband" .. lol!
anyway, if u said anything vulgar, or put ur email address, they censor it and it becomes bobba. hahahhaa. its lame la. cus those brits have better way of saying. lol! like sexy is smexi. kissing is snogging. sex is shagging etc.. lol!
oh well. im gg off. shall go sleep at 1.30am ba. im thinking of going to the gym tmr.. cus i need to go uss anyway and i'll be doing nothing between 12 plus till 3.30 pm.. oh well. shall jog then. hahaha. woo~
i was wondering, when will i ever laugh like this again?
oh well. lame pic. haha byee!
goodbye, shirley the casual.the only interesting thing today was that ryan foo and his mum came to join us for dinner. ryan foo that clown. [: we went to this claypot restaurant near my place. they sell this, chicken-stuffed-into-pig-stomach soup. which i thought was very smelly. the pig smell very strong. but then, we ate this prawn porridge, which was damn awesome. and its $18 for a fuckin huge portion!!! can feed, 6 people!!! i wanna eat there again!
ok. another thing to talk about: habbo hotel. i just went back to habbo hotel last night. i went until 5am! LOL! cus nathan's friend, gen li, also played. so he ask me play also! LOL. and we both played from 3am until 5am. then my mum came in and nagged. LOL. it really is a walk down memory lane. although me, bro, lorr and lionel used to play when i was in sec 2.. and we played habbo uk. we were quite dua pai then! im serious. cus we made friends with these uk ppl who were q influential then in habbo. and i even became this guy's wife. i remember the lame wedding ceremony lor. but then, thanks to them, i got HC. HC means habbo club. and u have to pay real money to get it. and if u get it, u're automatically "cool". everyone starts sucking up to u. yup. but then, that time we wanted to get. but we only can buy if we're in uk. anyway, my "husband" really spends alot of real money on habbo leh. i remember his username: hubbabubba234. LOL. but he got banned. and so did his brother and sister and his sister's "husband". lol! those times were crazily funny i tell u. we'd make restaurants or cafes or modelling agencies and have a ball of fun. super cute one. but addictive. i stopped playing cus of maple.. and also, when our supports were banned, no more money, no mroe fun. we heard they were jailed for cheating habbo money leh. but i think its fake. oh well. anyway... i doubt i'll go back after today. cus right, just now, this boy came to flirt with me. then when i asked for his asl.. he was goddamn 14 years old. o.o lol! okie, so pictures for memories!
my character: pillybaxto
lol! this is the expression for :o .. the shocker look. cute ar
:)
see?!?! the best part about habbo isnt HC club nor being pretty. sometimes we dress up ugly and disturb ppl! hahaha .. like we'll take part in beauty contest dressed like this
or this
these are my pets! all courtesy from my "ex husband".. LOL
btw, pets/ furniture must be bought with real money one leh. hahahahhhha!!! i was such a whore last time. lol. but i didnt do anything funny with him. although he's brit. hahaha. he was a nice guy until he MIA. luckily didnt have feelings or wad. ahhaha.
my room! i used to be fuckin rich one. these are all considered norms. i used to have HC sofas which are actually rares and very expensive. then, i think i got sian and i gave them away. lol!
my toilet
haiz! those were the days when i was something in habbo. now i go in, like sai liddat. and thats my "ex-husband" .. lol!
anyway, if u said anything vulgar, or put ur email address, they censor it and it becomes bobba. hahahhaa. its lame la. cus those brits have better way of saying. lol! like sexy is smexi. kissing is snogging. sex is shagging etc.. lol!oh well. im gg off. shall go sleep at 1.30am ba. im thinking of going to the gym tmr.. cus i need to go uss anyway and i'll be doing nothing between 12 plus till 3.30 pm.. oh well. shall jog then. hahaha. woo~
i was wondering, when will i ever laugh like this again?
oh well. lame pic. haha byee!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
it was a great day [:
Sometimes, you know that a great day will happen because you can just feel it. and indeed, yesterday was an amazing amazing day! the thing i love about blogging is that, i get to recap happy moments like these all over again.
i woke up late ytd and had to rush down to cityhall. damn weather these days. so good to chill. went to the bank. gosh. i thought i can change the amount of money i wanna transfer into my fixed deposit just in time for when my paycheque comes and reduce the amount. and im too late. so now, i still have to credit $150 on the 25th on june and another $80 on 2nd july. cus i screwed up. oh well, think of future! maybe its really time i stopped shopping. ]: start saving! [: this is what i've learnt in my fucking econs classes. hhahaha.
then met up with them at macs. gossiped alittle and headed to kbox. at first we're offered until 5pm. 2 hours where got enough!!! hahaha. so we did the one till 7pm! hahaha. shiok. sang alot of english songs and old chinese songs. like f4.. LOL! and i finally sang one korean song in my life. lol. just the english part la. here it is:
fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic elastic elastic elastic elastic !! hahahahah. nah im not a k-pop fan. but the boys just looks soo handsome leh.
ok, so heres the catch. cus we actually planned a surprise picnic at the barrage for hong choo. but of course, she doesnt know. haha. so anita and martin was supposed to leave earlier, and me and ade tan had to make sure hc is occupied until they have set the picnic up. and hc also didnt know that nei and khng were going. hahh. so at about 6.. anita pretended to answer a phone call from kane and then told martin they had to go office to sign paycheque. then i added in like "walao. damn kane. ask him go die" i really tried very very very hard to sustain the laughter! hahahahahhaha. then after they left, i purposely added on to the show. i called anita and said "omg. what? kane still at meeting?!" lol! cus they were still shopping for picnic food. lol. so had to stall time. then purposely shopped at topshop and stuff to delay. finally anita said they have already setted the stuff up. then we just went to marina bay. we attempted to walk. and realised that we were lost. so we walked to promenade. then from there, we still didnt know how to go to marina barrage. so we took yellow line to dhoby and red line to marina bay. then when we alighted, we waited at the wrong bus stop. it was soooo ulu. seems like no cars or whatsoever. for that moment, i wasn't really scared. just wished that i could keep myself out from the outside world. oh well. but we were in a rush for the surprise ma. so, we managed to walk out and into the correct bus stop. waited forever for the bus. and we finally reached barrage. and hong choo was so touched! she deserved it!!!! she's really one of the reasons why my poly life is damn fun! shes so cute and cheerful and she always organises class outings. we take turns la. sometimes i organise and sometimes she will do it. i remember the first day of school and when she said her name was hong choo, i was like "hong zhu?" then she said, "nope. its choo" lol! cute! happy birrrday babe! [:
im seriously damn bad at singing. LOL! seriously. fucking monotone. nd i can never hit the high notes. but awesomely fun when with the right crowd! hahaha. im not a chinese songs person no more. but then, its just fun to shout the lyrics out and stuff! we need to k more!! hahaha.
well, as for today, just woke up, prepared for school. went for another information overload. omg. im losing the mojo to mug already. lol! but i still paid attention. he's quite a good lecturer, dr zhang. haha. but i've been asking a lot of qns. fuck. hope he doesnt find me to be a pest. anyway while dinnering just now, saw this cute guy. he kinda looks like what i'd imagine prince charming to look like. except his armpits were damn hairy? cus he wore those jerseys ar. oh well. see? nobody's perfect! hahaha. feeeeels good to be single eh! wooo~ oh well. tomorrow supposed to go pubbing. but we're fucking broke. too broke to even happy hour! ]: i wanna drink sia. damn. plus, we're supposed to club on 3rd july. just realised.. i have outing with coussies on 3rd july. oh well. family first. omgggggggggggggggg. when can i clurb again!!!
speaking of clurb, my spelling is getting from bad to worse. i should blorg, i mean, blog in proper engrish, i mean, english! gahh! hahha. okie. waiting for pics to upload while watching ch8 drama on xinmsn. lol. ciao~~
hong choo's the one in green!
we're on tv!
blue riding hood?
hungry!
two of the 5 most favourite male species of human in my life. [albsie, u're in it too!!! and my dad. and bro]
fucking epic sia! hahahah
i woke up late ytd and had to rush down to cityhall. damn weather these days. so good to chill. went to the bank. gosh. i thought i can change the amount of money i wanna transfer into my fixed deposit just in time for when my paycheque comes and reduce the amount. and im too late. so now, i still have to credit $150 on the 25th on june and another $80 on 2nd july. cus i screwed up. oh well, think of future! maybe its really time i stopped shopping. ]: start saving! [: this is what i've learnt in my fucking econs classes. hhahaha.
then met up with them at macs. gossiped alittle and headed to kbox. at first we're offered until 5pm. 2 hours where got enough!!! hahaha. so we did the one till 7pm! hahaha. shiok. sang alot of english songs and old chinese songs. like f4.. LOL! and i finally sang one korean song in my life. lol. just the english part la. here it is:
fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic elastic elastic elastic elastic !! hahahahah. nah im not a k-pop fan. but the boys just looks soo handsome leh.
ok, so heres the catch. cus we actually planned a surprise picnic at the barrage for hong choo. but of course, she doesnt know. haha. so anita and martin was supposed to leave earlier, and me and ade tan had to make sure hc is occupied until they have set the picnic up. and hc also didnt know that nei and khng were going. hahh. so at about 6.. anita pretended to answer a phone call from kane and then told martin they had to go office to sign paycheque. then i added in like "walao. damn kane. ask him go die" i really tried very very very hard to sustain the laughter! hahahahahhaha. then after they left, i purposely added on to the show. i called anita and said "omg. what? kane still at meeting?!" lol! cus they were still shopping for picnic food. lol. so had to stall time. then purposely shopped at topshop and stuff to delay. finally anita said they have already setted the stuff up. then we just went to marina bay. we attempted to walk. and realised that we were lost. so we walked to promenade. then from there, we still didnt know how to go to marina barrage. so we took yellow line to dhoby and red line to marina bay. then when we alighted, we waited at the wrong bus stop. it was soooo ulu. seems like no cars or whatsoever. for that moment, i wasn't really scared. just wished that i could keep myself out from the outside world. oh well. but we were in a rush for the surprise ma. so, we managed to walk out and into the correct bus stop. waited forever for the bus. and we finally reached barrage. and hong choo was so touched! she deserved it!!!! she's really one of the reasons why my poly life is damn fun! shes so cute and cheerful and she always organises class outings. we take turns la. sometimes i organise and sometimes she will do it. i remember the first day of school and when she said her name was hong choo, i was like "hong zhu?" then she said, "nope. its choo" lol! cute! happy birrrday babe! [:
im seriously damn bad at singing. LOL! seriously. fucking monotone. nd i can never hit the high notes. but awesomely fun when with the right crowd! hahaha. im not a chinese songs person no more. but then, its just fun to shout the lyrics out and stuff! we need to k more!! hahaha.
well, as for today, just woke up, prepared for school. went for another information overload. omg. im losing the mojo to mug already. lol! but i still paid attention. he's quite a good lecturer, dr zhang. haha. but i've been asking a lot of qns. fuck. hope he doesnt find me to be a pest. anyway while dinnering just now, saw this cute guy. he kinda looks like what i'd imagine prince charming to look like. except his armpits were damn hairy? cus he wore those jerseys ar. oh well. see? nobody's perfect! hahaha. feeeeels good to be single eh! wooo~ oh well. tomorrow supposed to go pubbing. but we're fucking broke. too broke to even happy hour! ]: i wanna drink sia. damn. plus, we're supposed to club on 3rd july. just realised.. i have outing with coussies on 3rd july. oh well. family first. omgggggggggggggggg. when can i clurb again!!!
speaking of clurb, my spelling is getting from bad to worse. i should blorg, i mean, blog in proper engrish, i mean, english! gahh! hahha. okie. waiting for pics to upload while watching ch8 drama on xinmsn. lol. ciao~~
hong choo's the one in green!
we're on tv!
blue riding hood?
hungry!
two of the 5 most favourite male species of human in my life. [albsie, u're in it too!!! and my dad. and bro]
fucking epic sia! hahahah
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Quarter life crisis
its like, every single moment these days, i have thoughts running through my head. just thoughts about life, people... i mean, i used to be a people-watcher.. but now, its very very bad. and it takes my focus away from things that i shud be focusing on, like making my life a better one. i find it really irritating. seriously. it used to be good, but not if im supposed to be enjoying myself, and i think to myself : "one day, im gonna die. i wonder how that feels? like, i wont be able to do stuff in this body anymore. will i even notice im dead?" that kind of stuff!! and u know whats the cure? hanging out with SP friends?!!?! it got less this afternoon, but alot came through my head in the taxi home.
i mean, honestly, i really cannot imagine my life with a boyfriend, which is supposedly the thing to happen when u're in your 20s. i cannot imagine my life without my parents. im not cursing them, but lets face it. i know it too. one day they'll get old.. and the undesired will take place. i cannot imagine my life as an old person. as a middle aged person. i just cant imagine myself so old.. and mature.. and auntie? i just can't imagine growing up. i dont even know anyone who will probably like me for who i am. my personality is quite.. shitty? its rare for anyone to even carry a torch for me for even a month lor.
but then again, when i was in primary school, i never saw the day i'd turn 20 either.
sian. i was supposed to come online to watch my drama. then now its 2.48am and i just finished tagging willie on my pictures. looking thru the pics. sigh. oh well. thanks albsie for being here.
i mean, honestly, i really cannot imagine my life with a boyfriend, which is supposedly the thing to happen when u're in your 20s. i cannot imagine my life without my parents. im not cursing them, but lets face it. i know it too. one day they'll get old.. and the undesired will take place. i cannot imagine my life as an old person. as a middle aged person. i just cant imagine myself so old.. and mature.. and auntie? i just can't imagine growing up. i dont even know anyone who will probably like me for who i am. my personality is quite.. shitty? its rare for anyone to even carry a torch for me for even a month lor.
but then again, when i was in primary school, i never saw the day i'd turn 20 either.
sian. i was supposed to come online to watch my drama. then now its 2.48am and i just finished tagging willie on my pictures. looking thru the pics. sigh. oh well. thanks albsie for being here.
Monday, June 21, 2010
cant believe im crying just reading past memories from SP. so glad i kept a blog. cus i couldnt remember soooo much details. haha. i miss SP..
i really really gotta move on already. but, i just really really miss life in poly .. alot. all the friends, best friends, heart breaks, lectures, tutorials, short breaks, long breaks, complaining, laughing, sleeping, walking, running .... i miss SP. seriously. to the max. like, i've never missed anything non-living soo soo much ever.
who can forget the POKS? and lol, we used to call martin "chris" LOL!!!!!!!
just smiling and crying at the same time reading those old memories. omg. its 3.20am. really dont wanna sleep.
cant believe how deeply i can fall for an online guy i met on icq last time.... in year 1. haiz. tommy! hahaha. its like, madness. but i can remember the sweetness la. at that time. lol. we actually lasted one year ++ leh! LOL. somemore he was in australia. cant remember why we broke. i think cus we were too far or sth. lol!!!! madness.
i was sooo silly last time. really silly. hahha. miss the feeling of learning something new and amazing.
omggg. i used to type "f-ing" instead of fucking. LOL! how innocent. LOL! i forgot tommy used to make a poem for me.. awwww right?!
i really really gotta move on already. but, i just really really miss life in poly .. alot. all the friends, best friends, heart breaks, lectures, tutorials, short breaks, long breaks, complaining, laughing, sleeping, walking, running .... i miss SP. seriously. to the max. like, i've never missed anything non-living soo soo much ever.
who can forget the POKS? and lol, we used to call martin "chris" LOL!!!!!!!
just smiling and crying at the same time reading those old memories. omg. its 3.20am. really dont wanna sleep.
cant believe how deeply i can fall for an online guy i met on icq last time.... in year 1. haiz. tommy! hahaha. its like, madness. but i can remember the sweetness la. at that time. lol. we actually lasted one year ++ leh! LOL. somemore he was in australia. cant remember why we broke. i think cus we were too far or sth. lol!!!! madness.
i was sooo silly last time. really silly. hahha. miss the feeling of learning something new and amazing.
omggg. i used to type "f-ing" instead of fucking. LOL! how innocent. LOL! i forgot tommy used to make a poem for me.. awwww right?!
random food for thought
just a random thought:
albsie once told me his discovery. he realised that, when he reads what he blogged yesterday, he would think "wth? why did i blog like this" or sth. like jiu, he has mature over that period of time. i totally agreed with alb. because i feel that a lot of times when i re-read my old post. but just so you know, alb.. reading my old blogpost, esp those about my poly life, i wished i could post as childishly as last time again. haha.
just random thoughts there.
albsie once told me his discovery. he realised that, when he reads what he blogged yesterday, he would think "wth? why did i blog like this" or sth. like jiu, he has mature over that period of time. i totally agreed with alb. because i feel that a lot of times when i re-read my old post. but just so you know, alb.. reading my old blogpost, esp those about my poly life, i wished i could post as childishly as last time again. haha.
just random thoughts there.
first day of school
heyhey! ok, so today was first day of school. woke up and decided to start on a clean slate. so decided to go specs-less for school. of course i dont intend to do it everyday cus its FUCKING ex. $28 for 5 days leh. omg la. i might as well sell my valuables! anyway, coloured contacts also cannot everyday wear.. lol! but cus i was supposed to have dindin with martin, anita and hc, so i didnt mind dressing up a little. see mood one [: so woke up at 11am. took a shower (yes! for once in a looooong time, i actually bothered to shower before going to school! hahah! i know albsie, u're probably frowning ar! u clean freak) and dolled up. omg. double eyelids failed. so just spammed abit more eyeliner. forget it la. stupid double eyelids. so went to SP to meet tf. had my tang chu yu. omggg. yummy like fuck! hhahahha ... shall go back more often for lunch. can see tortoises also [: so after that, went to SIM abit earlier to print notes. first person i saw was karen and her bf. so cool. nice to see a familiar face though. then went to the classroom. then we went to get our student ID and more familiar faces. saw lynette, a bunch of DAC ppl.. and i think i saw my primary school friend, michelle yeo. i didnt dare say hi leh. but i think i might on wed. cus she was alone. i just added her on fb, maybe can break ice there. oh well. saw bettina also, so we went in tgt. so had lessons at 3.30pm. lecturer's from china. but v funny. he speaks q good english but with the chinese accent and also cham singlish! LOL! luckily he's not as boring as sin mun wah, my ex-econs lecturer. (ceteris paribus is his fave phrase) but then, the first thing on his agenda was "the passing rate for this course is 75%)." o.o somemore, he said its gonna be damn tedious, cus for those non-bridging students, they have 24 lessons to complete econs. whereas, for us, we're squeezing 24 lessons worth of econs into 12 lessons. so its like 2 chapters every lesson. fucking information overload.
luckily i was still in my study mood. remember how i said earlier in the hols that i had the urge to just mug! LOL! the feeling was still there. and i took alot of notes and paid full attention. fucking fucking fucking hard la. even with 90% attention, i felt damn lost. econs mixed with add math leh! WALAO. i thought poly's econs was bad enough. this is, x10?!?!? GG! i was sooo information overload, i committed these 2 mistakes while travelling to grand cathay to meet martiantian and gang:
1. i took bus 52 or something. i REMEMBERED seeing that it went to clementi mrt. so i boarded it .. then as it went along.. slowly, i was suspicious of whether i saw it correctly or not leh. so i dropped off at a stop.. only to realise that i was just 1 stop away from clementi MRT! i need to have more confidence in myself, seriously. so i had to take another bus from that stop to go clementi mrt. lazy to walk.
2. i was at CLEMENTI mrt, and i took the damn train that went to JOO KOON. LOL! im too used to living in the east la! must get my SP mode back sia. lol! thats why i was wondering, huh.. why clementi to dover take sooo long. lol! finally, had to take escalator down, went across to the other escalator that went up.
lol la! finally reached astons. so nice of them to wait for me. had a great dinner. with usual laughters. cus while waiting for ttengy at dover, i was waiting at the bridge and i just went down memory lane. i fucking miss SP. just miss hanging out with my clique. last time, our whole class used to wait for each other at that bridge for everyone to come then we'd leave for class tgt. i remember we were late for our marketing class once and lee chong hwa got soo angry! never saw hwahwa so angry before. then slowly we had cliques and we just waited for our clique to come and zhao. but even with the clique, going to school tgt was so much fun. nathan would always be late and we'll mock at him. then we sometimes we play "bi dong xi" .. or just telling each other that we didnt do tutorials. lol. or during presentations, we'd be discussing about who's going first and stuff. omg. i fucking miss those good times. ALOT. i cant let go. i used to take the whole "waiting for ppl at the bridge and walking up to SB" for granted. it was only after the last exams, that i realised we'll NEVER do it again. it really got into my system. and it felt so weird. i dont feel me anymore. even till now, i still feel very detached from what i used to be. and i don't know. i feel like im having an emotional stroke. i can't really feel that sort of happiness derived from such simple everyday events anymore. its so weird to me that i can't feel happy in that way anymore lor. i know by the final year, we drifted apart even more. but sigh. i will give up everything i have now, to just re-live poly year 1. i remembered taking econs in poly year 1. i never paid attention to the lecturer as much as i paid attention to today's lessons. but boy, it was soo much fun. we'd draw on each other's papers. or we'd count how many "ya" he said ( i remembered it was about 30 ya for 1 hour). or we'd play "bi dong xi" together. or when martin dozed off, we'll make fun of him by writing random lame stuff on his notes. i never paid attention to any of sin mun wah's lectures (which explains why i only got B) but i had the best fun doing something damn boring. but now? im just paying attention like how i should have. so yup.
ok. hahaha. got so out of topic. yeah. so i came home, showered and guess what? I REVISED TODAY'S LECTURE and did my damn tutorials! i really needed to slowly digest the info. and i think i managed to digest about 60% only even reading through, writing more stuff on my notes and doing the tutorial. anyway, now that tutorial's cleared, i can play in peace tmr! going to go kbox and then celebrate hc's bday at the barrage! coolio! [:
and yessss! high chance of clubbing on 3rd july!!!!!!! i fucking need to feel wild again leh. my wild child really tamed down alot already. i wished it would come out again. i feel dead living this life now. doing things the way it should be done. i resent it. i mean, i'm like.. not even dressing up for school. just tees and shorts. and i did my tutorials and listened to lectures. i cant even think of anything fun to do at outings anymore. i hope the wild child will come out again. hopefully clubbing can change me again leh. inject some.. funk into me! the loud, talkative, gossipy girl, that is me. not this, quiet, anti-social wallflower.
compare my first day in poly (click here) and (click here) to this post. see the difference. i guess, this is the life i'm going to lead. so, i might as well... just try to stay as happy as i can. ciao.
p/s: omg. xueling posted this very old picture of me. LOL. i think this was in poly year 1.
zomg... x=
luckily i was still in my study mood. remember how i said earlier in the hols that i had the urge to just mug! LOL! the feeling was still there. and i took alot of notes and paid full attention. fucking fucking fucking hard la. even with 90% attention, i felt damn lost. econs mixed with add math leh! WALAO. i thought poly's econs was bad enough. this is, x10?!?!? GG! i was sooo information overload, i committed these 2 mistakes while travelling to grand cathay to meet martiantian and gang:
1. i took bus 52 or something. i REMEMBERED seeing that it went to clementi mrt. so i boarded it .. then as it went along.. slowly, i was suspicious of whether i saw it correctly or not leh. so i dropped off at a stop.. only to realise that i was just 1 stop away from clementi MRT! i need to have more confidence in myself, seriously. so i had to take another bus from that stop to go clementi mrt. lazy to walk.
2. i was at CLEMENTI mrt, and i took the damn train that went to JOO KOON. LOL! im too used to living in the east la! must get my SP mode back sia. lol! thats why i was wondering, huh.. why clementi to dover take sooo long. lol! finally, had to take escalator down, went across to the other escalator that went up.
lol la! finally reached astons. so nice of them to wait for me. had a great dinner. with usual laughters. cus while waiting for ttengy at dover, i was waiting at the bridge and i just went down memory lane. i fucking miss SP. just miss hanging out with my clique. last time, our whole class used to wait for each other at that bridge for everyone to come then we'd leave for class tgt. i remember we were late for our marketing class once and lee chong hwa got soo angry! never saw hwahwa so angry before. then slowly we had cliques and we just waited for our clique to come and zhao. but even with the clique, going to school tgt was so much fun. nathan would always be late and we'll mock at him. then we sometimes we play "bi dong xi" .. or just telling each other that we didnt do tutorials. lol. or during presentations, we'd be discussing about who's going first and stuff. omg. i fucking miss those good times. ALOT. i cant let go. i used to take the whole "waiting for ppl at the bridge and walking up to SB" for granted. it was only after the last exams, that i realised we'll NEVER do it again. it really got into my system. and it felt so weird. i dont feel me anymore. even till now, i still feel very detached from what i used to be. and i don't know. i feel like im having an emotional stroke. i can't really feel that sort of happiness derived from such simple everyday events anymore. its so weird to me that i can't feel happy in that way anymore lor. i know by the final year, we drifted apart even more. but sigh. i will give up everything i have now, to just re-live poly year 1. i remembered taking econs in poly year 1. i never paid attention to the lecturer as much as i paid attention to today's lessons. but boy, it was soo much fun. we'd draw on each other's papers. or we'd count how many "ya" he said ( i remembered it was about 30 ya for 1 hour). or we'd play "bi dong xi" together. or when martin dozed off, we'll make fun of him by writing random lame stuff on his notes. i never paid attention to any of sin mun wah's lectures (which explains why i only got B) but i had the best fun doing something damn boring. but now? im just paying attention like how i should have. so yup.
ok. hahaha. got so out of topic. yeah. so i came home, showered and guess what? I REVISED TODAY'S LECTURE and did my damn tutorials! i really needed to slowly digest the info. and i think i managed to digest about 60% only even reading through, writing more stuff on my notes and doing the tutorial. anyway, now that tutorial's cleared, i can play in peace tmr! going to go kbox and then celebrate hc's bday at the barrage! coolio! [:
and yessss! high chance of clubbing on 3rd july!!!!!!! i fucking need to feel wild again leh. my wild child really tamed down alot already. i wished it would come out again. i feel dead living this life now. doing things the way it should be done. i resent it. i mean, i'm like.. not even dressing up for school. just tees and shorts. and i did my tutorials and listened to lectures. i cant even think of anything fun to do at outings anymore. i hope the wild child will come out again. hopefully clubbing can change me again leh. inject some.. funk into me! the loud, talkative, gossipy girl, that is me. not this, quiet, anti-social wallflower.
compare my first day in poly (click here) and (click here) to this post. see the difference. i guess, this is the life i'm going to lead. so, i might as well... just try to stay as happy as i can. ciao.
p/s: omg. xueling posted this very old picture of me. LOL. i think this was in poly year 1.
zomg... x=
Sunday, June 20, 2010
complaints.
omg.. i really wanna get this bag leh. the closing day is this coming thurs. its only $30. but then, i only have $80 of cash to spare. plus this week gonna kbox, celebrate hc's bday, i still need ta get reggie her present and my bro his present. omg. goodbye chio bag. omg larrrrr. $30. very tempting. but kane will only give me my pay next next saturday one lor. damn him la. feel like.. asking for parents. but i wont do that la. not for a bag. i wanna show them im financially independant. although i know my mum always leaves $20 on the table for me. but i cant take them la. im already 20 years old plus im studying accountancy leh. walao. haiz. i will just have to bid goodbye to this perfectly gorgeous brown bag. omg. shall stop online shopping. T.T
since i cant get that bag, just let me rant it all out then. need to get it out of my system. chio lehhhh. zomg!
money no enough
just realised that i'll be back on surviving on my $450 a month allowance. omg. its fucking little. i realised. ok, this is the breakdown on my financial planning for the month:
$100 for transport. seriously lor, i calculated already. fuck smrt. ok. if a trip to sim is $3 ($1.50 for mrt. $1.50 for bus). go there and come home will be $6. go school 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month. that makes it $120. so $100 is actually understating it leh. omg!
$50 for phonebills. yeah, i pay for my own phonebill and i pray that it wont exceed $30! so at least i can still buy bag.
$80 to savings. yup. im going to save consistently. i wanna save enough to invest. and earn interest larrr. gahhh. also, never know when savings would come in handy.
$30 for daily amenities/ beauty. ok, this is another understatement lor. u see, my bottle of moisturizer costs $30 already. and it lasts 3 months max. omg. plus, i always run out of shampoo v fast. what about leg wax? and soap?? and body scrubs?? ]:
left with $190 for the whole month. for lunch/dinner/social life/shopping. if u average it out, i only can spend $6 a day. if im lucky with my phone bills, maybe $10 a day. for lunch leh. somemore sometimes need ta go out with friends. even astons will cost $6.50...how to shop? and how to buy the national geographic book i want? how to watch movies and go k box? zomg. basically, i will have $190 shopping money/ entertainment money IF i eat grass everyday. ok. maybe, i shud settle lunch at hm and dinner at hm to save money. at e most, eat breadtalk lor.
kinda regretted splurging on maxi dress. x= oh well. money's spent is money's spent. ok .. gonna sleep. hope can still do some adhoc jobs for kelly on weeekends. maintainence in singapore is fucking high leh. gahh.
$100 for transport. seriously lor, i calculated already. fuck smrt. ok. if a trip to sim is $3 ($1.50 for mrt. $1.50 for bus). go there and come home will be $6. go school 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month. that makes it $120. so $100 is actually understating it leh. omg!
$50 for phonebills. yeah, i pay for my own phonebill and i pray that it wont exceed $30! so at least i can still buy bag.
$80 to savings. yup. im going to save consistently. i wanna save enough to invest. and earn interest larrr. gahhh. also, never know when savings would come in handy.
$30 for daily amenities/ beauty. ok, this is another understatement lor. u see, my bottle of moisturizer costs $30 already. and it lasts 3 months max. omg. plus, i always run out of shampoo v fast. what about leg wax? and soap?? and body scrubs?? ]:
left with $190 for the whole month. for lunch/dinner/social life/shopping. if u average it out, i only can spend $6 a day. if im lucky with my phone bills, maybe $10 a day. for lunch leh. somemore sometimes need ta go out with friends. even astons will cost $6.50...how to shop? and how to buy the national geographic book i want? how to watch movies and go k box? zomg. basically, i will have $190 shopping money/ entertainment money IF i eat grass everyday. ok. maybe, i shud settle lunch at hm and dinner at hm to save money. at e most, eat breadtalk lor.
kinda regretted splurging on maxi dress. x= oh well. money's spent is money's spent. ok .. gonna sleep. hope can still do some adhoc jobs for kelly on weeekends. maintainence in singapore is fucking high leh. gahh.
Done.
listening to air supply songs now. shall dl their album later. wad a fantastic concert! u see, i really enjoy working at uss. like ushering and stuff. cus honestly, i actually enjoy interacting with people. although alot of shitass out there.. but i enjoy it. but i just don't belong in USS. its like throughout the evening, although i was surrounded by so many ppl, i've never felt more alone in my entire life. forget it. i rather go back to doing retail or what lar. i had my fair share of fun anyway. i didn't dare pass the resignation letter to lena. but i just emailed her. so, yup. i guess, this is it. u see, when i work or put my heart to doing something, i put in 100%. i really do. i make sure that it surpasses my expectations. or at least reach it. like, for retail or interacting with people, i'd engage small talks to make sure they're comfy and stuff. but because i was fuckin sian and bored in USS just now, i couldn't really serve the guests like i thought i would have. i directed ppl to the wrong seats a couple of times. got into abit of trouble. but then, im sure if i had put my heart into it, i'd have cut down on half the mistakes. i think i only gave 70% tonight. oh well. this marks the end of my USS journey. but today will be the start of my uni life. hopefully will have hawt guys. so at least got motivation. ahhaha. x=
im q looking forward to this week. have got some events lined up. [: awesum. hahah. okie. shall wax legs and head to bed. i wanna paint nails purple, now that i dont have to work at uss alr! awesum!
im q looking forward to this week. have got some events lined up. [: awesum. hahah. okie. shall wax legs and head to bed. i wanna paint nails purple, now that i dont have to work at uss alr! awesum!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
damn fucking siannn
omg. Im fucking sian. Half an hour more and i need to shower. Fuck la. I rlly dont feel like gg to work. Zzzz. Oh well, shirley. Jiayou ba. Its sian. Fuckin cb sian. Gahhhhh. no matter how bad a day will go, it will be over. Zzzz. I rather do the expo job all over again. This is e feeling i get when i go for co practice. Only its multiplied.
omg... i want these!
Hmm, right move?
i've typed and printed the letter of resignation. is this a right move? am i being cowardly? is it wrong to avoid things that make me upset? would it be braver to face it and deal with it? but life is so short, so is it worth the while to give something that doesnt make u happy, a shot? like i hide some people whom i really envy on facebook so their feeds don't appear on my facebook. am i really petty? and if i am petty, is it wrong?
these are the questions that have been floating around my mind while i was with gugu and their family. i know, everyone's life is different. and i should be leading my life in my way. but sometimes, i just can't help but wonder if its right to even go against the flow. its supposed to be a happy thing working for uss. but im really not happy. as in, i dont really even get the job satisfaction from this job. i feel even more unhappy working than quitting. i know im going to miss out on concerts and stuff when i quit. but, i just feel that.. i should maybe try somewhere else where i belong. i need that sense of belonging. even at kelly services, although i dun like kane, but i feel quite belonged la, honestly. so yeah. i've decided to quit. prolly gnna be a shock to alot of ppl.. but lets just let it be known that the reason i quit is because of school. makes things simpler. plus when school starts, weekends are prolly used to hang out with my darling friends and taking a break or mugging. so, no time also anyway. i've screwed up in SP. i dont wanna screw up again in UOL. i really hope to do a masters in london.
had a fun time. was supposed to spend the evening alone at home. but gugu asked me out with lorraine and gang. so we went out to orchard. just hung around. i found a new hangout now! scape's pretty cool leh. i feel. hahah. had yummy dinner at Big O. and so happened leh. we walked past this pub with a tv which was showing world cup. and we just happen to see netherlands score. LOL! naise. and i also cheered. although i didnt support any! hahaha. went to takashimaya. ate ice cream .. i needed comfort food. then .. we saw this toy exhibition. ok, i've been curious about this thing called "magic worm" ..
its supposed to be sliding in and out of my hands. but its just a piece of... thing with eyes and an invisible thread attached to a cardboard. i can't even make it slide out of my hands. ]: basically we have to pull the string to make it move. WTF. ]: cheated. sian leh. dman.
and guess what i've invested in?!?!?!
TADA! i figured, since i might be social life-less over the next few weekends, i might as well do something.. constructive. and its none other than my favourite - the eiffel tower. i've NEVER done one of these. so it'll probably take a lot of weekends. means, more stay-home saturdays and saving enough money so i can go and buy bonds (Read cleo this month!) and earn interest! weee~ im basically trading my social life away for 3 pieces of cardboards. and my brother just told me on msn: "a b c d e f g e r a l d says:
HEY GOOD NEWS, YOU GOT YOUR EIFFEL TOWER AND YOUR WORM TO ENCOMPASS YOUR ENTIRE MONTH :D" naise.
maybe anyone wanna help with the construction of this can txt me or what lar. can build tgt or sth also. weee~ new project! [:
okie. gonna figure that stupid worm out.. then go and watch 90210. tmr got work. eggcited to listen to the songs from air supply. but sian to .. be outcasted again. but oh well. last time, hopefully? ciao!
p/s: thanks chantel for assuring me its not cowardly. i dont know why but listening to her is assuring. wished she was back. [:
these are the questions that have been floating around my mind while i was with gugu and their family. i know, everyone's life is different. and i should be leading my life in my way. but sometimes, i just can't help but wonder if its right to even go against the flow. its supposed to be a happy thing working for uss. but im really not happy. as in, i dont really even get the job satisfaction from this job. i feel even more unhappy working than quitting. i know im going to miss out on concerts and stuff when i quit. but, i just feel that.. i should maybe try somewhere else where i belong. i need that sense of belonging. even at kelly services, although i dun like kane, but i feel quite belonged la, honestly. so yeah. i've decided to quit. prolly gnna be a shock to alot of ppl.. but lets just let it be known that the reason i quit is because of school. makes things simpler. plus when school starts, weekends are prolly used to hang out with my darling friends and taking a break or mugging. so, no time also anyway. i've screwed up in SP. i dont wanna screw up again in UOL. i really hope to do a masters in london.
had a fun time. was supposed to spend the evening alone at home. but gugu asked me out with lorraine and gang. so we went out to orchard. just hung around. i found a new hangout now! scape's pretty cool leh. i feel. hahah. had yummy dinner at Big O. and so happened leh. we walked past this pub with a tv which was showing world cup. and we just happen to see netherlands score. LOL! naise. and i also cheered. although i didnt support any! hahaha. went to takashimaya. ate ice cream .. i needed comfort food. then .. we saw this toy exhibition. ok, i've been curious about this thing called "magic worm" ..
its supposed to be sliding in and out of my hands. but its just a piece of... thing with eyes and an invisible thread attached to a cardboard. i can't even make it slide out of my hands. ]: basically we have to pull the string to make it move. WTF. ]: cheated. sian leh. dman.
and guess what i've invested in?!?!?!
TADA! i figured, since i might be social life-less over the next few weekends, i might as well do something.. constructive. and its none other than my favourite - the eiffel tower. i've NEVER done one of these. so it'll probably take a lot of weekends. means, more stay-home saturdays and saving enough money so i can go and buy bonds (Read cleo this month!) and earn interest! weee~ im basically trading my social life away for 3 pieces of cardboards. and my brother just told me on msn: "a b c d e f g e r a l d says:HEY GOOD NEWS, YOU GOT YOUR EIFFEL TOWER AND YOUR WORM TO ENCOMPASS YOUR ENTIRE MONTH :D" naise.
maybe anyone wanna help with the construction of this can txt me or what lar. can build tgt or sth also. weee~ new project! [:
okie. gonna figure that stupid worm out.. then go and watch 90210. tmr got work. eggcited to listen to the songs from air supply. but sian to .. be outcasted again. but oh well. last time, hopefully? ciao!
p/s: thanks chantel for assuring me its not cowardly. i dont know why but listening to her is assuring. wished she was back. [:
Friday, June 18, 2010
-dusts off cobwebs-
hahah. sorry for the late post, my dear bloggy! have been so tired and lethargic and sian to even come online to see how other ppls' lives are better than mine. so have been staying offline for quite a bit. have been working! omg. i forgot how it felt like to stand for hours and hours .. and luckily i've been sleeping before 12 these few days! but still so fucking tiring. and somemore, have to entertain ppl who have eyes grown on their foreheads. basically my job over the few days was to hang around the registration area, ask the incoming visitors "hello sir. have u registered online?" if they have, usher them to the orange counters. if they havent, give them a form, staple their namecards to the form, make sure they fill up everything and usher them to red/blue counters.
apparently, alot of them just dont wanna fill up the form. or when i ask them whether they have registered online, they just walk past me as though i wasn't there. or there are those who are like "huh? wa. so troublesome ar, tsk!" at me. like my fault?! but of course, there are always the nice ones who will compensate for the nasty visitors. but overall, i liked this job. managed to make friends like shiying, jiajia and chay. i love gossiping with shiying and jiajia. of course, when i was sleepy, i zoned out alot. but everytime me and shiying see each other, we'll shake our shoulders. its to mimick luo han fish. LOL. and chay will randomly come up to me and sing and sing and sing! LOL!
another complaint, would be the damn Colon. or rather, her real name is Collin. she's damn bitch la. "stop gathering here. spread out!" and her face ar, waa... 80% of the time is fierce one lor. sometimes have to butter her up.. blah. but i got scolded quite alot by her. walao. sian. haha. and of course, the worst is luo han fish. blah! she's really damn... ZZZZ. i wonder how she even got into NUS? its like, i heard.. she was sitting on the table. then one of the colleagues told her to either stand or sit on the chair. then she said "why?" O.O and u know what came next? luohanfish said "huh? why stand on the chair?" ZOMGGGG. if this is what NUS has... i thank god i didn't go in. lol! what the hell?! she's fuckin superficial. pray that i won't work with her ever!
so after saying goodbye, we turned in those fuckin ugly red vests and got our free popcorns. hahaha! then i headed to potong pasir to collect my studio pic. as i walked and thought about it, i thought that its a very lame thing to do. i dont rlly feel like displaying it anymore. lol! went potong pasir then went parkway to meet the girls. we tried "Everything with fries" and its sooo awesome! the price is reasonable, its near my house, the salmon is good, although i had pork cutlet sandwich.. the fries is naise and the nutella tart with ice cream is yummilicious!! omg. now i know where i can dabao home on home alone days. its damnnnnnnn naise leh! then the girls came over to my place, or pig sty.. lol! nice to have guests. i was reading CLEO on bachelors and their house. lol! i wanna have my own pad (the cool term bachelors use to call "house") too! hahaha. i can't wait to decorate it into a place i can call heaven. then i can travel around the world, to buy different ornaments and furniture! so even if my worklife and personal life sucked, i'd still have a good home to go to!!
so anyway, i think i've decided on quitting my universal studios job. im not happy there. because i havent got any proper friends there. and i just don't feel comfortable working with the people there. i find them... too fake. im sorry la. maybe im just envious or what. but u know, anyway since school's starting, i think i should focus on my studies too. i know uss takes up like.. 1 day of the entire month, so they clearly can manage even without my help. it doesn't mean that if ppl are happy there, i will be too. so, yup. gonna quit.
ok la. going to rest, got tmr off! shall pack up drawer, clear shelf, maybe stock up any necessary stationery for school, pass george my notes, vacuum/sweep room, detox tmr since overeating over the past few days, hopefully can go for a jog at the canal and hopefully the girls can come over again! hahaha. sunday should be spent visiting foster grandma who fell down again and is hospitalised. then work for air supply concert. im looking forward to the concert.. but not really to the friends part.
p/s: if he had sms-ed me that msg last time, i would have completely given in and prolly accept him back into my life. but now, im happy with or without him. i don't know how much of that msg i can actually trust, but im not taking the chance. im selfish but i need to stop putting myself thru those situations again. i gave us a chance before and since u've decided to forfeit it, i've given up on you then too. as much as i sometimes wished i could go back into those times with you once again, i really don't want to go back into the false illusions thinking im happy because there's us. i'd rather be lonely sometimes but feel in control of my life. i wanna apologise to u for that rude reply, but i am really not sorry for the reply i gave u. im not sure if u're reading my blog, but if you are, then.. i hope u read what i just said. i dont mind being friends.. just nothing more than that anymore. and if you don't.. then so be it also.
i am woman, hear me roar!
fuck. im already having mondy blues. ciao!
apparently, alot of them just dont wanna fill up the form. or when i ask them whether they have registered online, they just walk past me as though i wasn't there. or there are those who are like "huh? wa. so troublesome ar, tsk!" at me. like my fault?! but of course, there are always the nice ones who will compensate for the nasty visitors. but overall, i liked this job. managed to make friends like shiying, jiajia and chay. i love gossiping with shiying and jiajia. of course, when i was sleepy, i zoned out alot. but everytime me and shiying see each other, we'll shake our shoulders. its to mimick luo han fish. LOL. and chay will randomly come up to me and sing and sing and sing! LOL!
another complaint, would be the damn Colon. or rather, her real name is Collin. she's damn bitch la. "stop gathering here. spread out!" and her face ar, waa... 80% of the time is fierce one lor. sometimes have to butter her up.. blah. but i got scolded quite alot by her. walao. sian. haha. and of course, the worst is luo han fish. blah! she's really damn... ZZZZ. i wonder how she even got into NUS? its like, i heard.. she was sitting on the table. then one of the colleagues told her to either stand or sit on the chair. then she said "why?" O.O and u know what came next? luohanfish said "huh? why stand on the chair?" ZOMGGGG. if this is what NUS has... i thank god i didn't go in. lol! what the hell?! she's fuckin superficial. pray that i won't work with her ever!
so after saying goodbye, we turned in those fuckin ugly red vests and got our free popcorns. hahaha! then i headed to potong pasir to collect my studio pic. as i walked and thought about it, i thought that its a very lame thing to do. i dont rlly feel like displaying it anymore. lol! went potong pasir then went parkway to meet the girls. we tried "Everything with fries" and its sooo awesome! the price is reasonable, its near my house, the salmon is good, although i had pork cutlet sandwich.. the fries is naise and the nutella tart with ice cream is yummilicious!! omg. now i know where i can dabao home on home alone days. its damnnnnnnn naise leh! then the girls came over to my place, or pig sty.. lol! nice to have guests. i was reading CLEO on bachelors and their house. lol! i wanna have my own pad (the cool term bachelors use to call "house") too! hahaha. i can't wait to decorate it into a place i can call heaven. then i can travel around the world, to buy different ornaments and furniture! so even if my worklife and personal life sucked, i'd still have a good home to go to!!
so anyway, i think i've decided on quitting my universal studios job. im not happy there. because i havent got any proper friends there. and i just don't feel comfortable working with the people there. i find them... too fake. im sorry la. maybe im just envious or what. but u know, anyway since school's starting, i think i should focus on my studies too. i know uss takes up like.. 1 day of the entire month, so they clearly can manage even without my help. it doesn't mean that if ppl are happy there, i will be too. so, yup. gonna quit.
ok la. going to rest, got tmr off! shall pack up drawer, clear shelf, maybe stock up any necessary stationery for school, pass george my notes, vacuum/sweep room, detox tmr since overeating over the past few days, hopefully can go for a jog at the canal and hopefully the girls can come over again! hahaha. sunday should be spent visiting foster grandma who fell down again and is hospitalised. then work for air supply concert. im looking forward to the concert.. but not really to the friends part.
p/s: if he had sms-ed me that msg last time, i would have completely given in and prolly accept him back into my life. but now, im happy with or without him. i don't know how much of that msg i can actually trust, but im not taking the chance. im selfish but i need to stop putting myself thru those situations again. i gave us a chance before and since u've decided to forfeit it, i've given up on you then too. as much as i sometimes wished i could go back into those times with you once again, i really don't want to go back into the false illusions thinking im happy because there's us. i'd rather be lonely sometimes but feel in control of my life. i wanna apologise to u for that rude reply, but i am really not sorry for the reply i gave u. im not sure if u're reading my blog, but if you are, then.. i hope u read what i just said. i dont mind being friends.. just nothing more than that anymore. and if you don't.. then so be it also.
i am woman, hear me roar!
fuck. im already having mondy blues. ciao!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
hmmm..
sometimes, i wonder.. if i totally cut myself off from this world for a week, would anyone even notice my disappearance? hmm.. or if i died, how long will people take to notice i'm dead?
A terrible friend i am.
sometimes, i feel like im the worst friend one can have. even the worst human being. sometimes i just place my interests before those of my friends. sometimes i neglect how they feel. fuck man. sometimes i dont know if i deserve any friends even. oh well. another day tomorrow. 2 more days to work..
A very very good quote
a friend of mine just posted this on facebook, and i agreeee with it sooo much, i can nod my head until it falls off:
its actually from a very very unexpected person..
it's better to be alone rather than be with someone who makes you feel alone
its actually from a very very unexpected person..
damn luo han!
slept at 11.30pm sharp last night. was so sleepy anyway. woke up reluctantly to go to work. thought work would be uber boring but it turned out ok. u know, when the engine starts rolling, i just can't really stop working. lol. but its hard to get the engine rolling in the first place. so, i encountered something which i think i will be encountering alot in life from now on.
this girl, her nickname by us is luohan cus of her hair. so anyway, she asked this morning "so which school are you from?". then 90% said NUS. u know how easily i get deflated at this kinda social situations. so i just ignored the question while packing the goodie bags while they are talking about which faculty they're in, what camp and who do mass dance whatsoever. then damn luohan asked me personally, so i just gave my biggest and most customer-friendly smile and said "UOL. accounting and finance" then she "oh-ed". cus before that, she asked martin and martin said dunno etc.. luckily martin said.. but local uni need 3 years. then damn luohan was saying "thought those 2 year courses are unreliable" BLAH! its like from the start, can tell she's the hao-lian kinda piece of shit lor. dog eyes see people low that kind. i know, im prolly also cannot eat the grapes and calling the grapes sour. but thats my business. ok, here's why the few of us can't stand her:
1. she keeps asking about education stuff. like to my colleagues who are both sisters.. one of the sister stopped school at sec school. so she asked the other sister "oh, so you're like your sister? stopped at sec sch too?" KNN. walao. damn .. zzz can!
2. she was assigned to the back one leh. then she kept rushing forward to talk to the visitors although there were ENOUGH people already. and she even went to in front of the entrance to greet the people. and when she greets, she shouts?
3. her makeup is damn thick la. its like, her face and neck are 2 different tones?
4. yeah, so she likes to be in the front right? so the rest of us just go to the middle and talk and laugh. and then, when she pleases, she goes back to the back, leaving the front empty. or if not, she will just sit at the vip lounge de info desk and show off her "sexy" legs
5. halfway through, she's like "omg. i can't wait to go home and watch gossip girl" outloud to herself, but she was kinda talking to me but i just smiled at her.
6. she ran towards me halfway and said "omg. i just attempted to speak japanese" oohh. so wonderful u can speak jap. if u suceeded, maybe u can show off. but u cant even succeed then .. why show off?
she's the typical agree-with-you-in-your-face-so-you'll-ask-her-about-herself-and-she-can-show-off kinda person lor. then she's all goody two shoes in front of our supervisor, also another bitch, colon ar. her nickname we gave her. walao. zzzz. maybe thank god i didnt go local unis anyway. confirm have this kinda backstabbing bitch preying on those geeky students who don't really know that such monsters lurk around them.
phew. feels good to just rant it out. bloody luohan. it has been really quiet in my life uh, these days. maybe all my friends are chased off by me. lol! oh welll. shall sleep early again tonight. ciao~ had a GREAT walk home just now anyway. wonderfully beautiful backdrop. and standing for the past 9 hours just made me treasure my old and squeaky chair more. [:
this girl, her nickname by us is luohan cus of her hair. so anyway, she asked this morning "so which school are you from?". then 90% said NUS. u know how easily i get deflated at this kinda social situations. so i just ignored the question while packing the goodie bags while they are talking about which faculty they're in, what camp and who do mass dance whatsoever. then damn luohan asked me personally, so i just gave my biggest and most customer-friendly smile and said "UOL. accounting and finance" then she "oh-ed". cus before that, she asked martin and martin said dunno etc.. luckily martin said.. but local uni need 3 years. then damn luohan was saying "thought those 2 year courses are unreliable" BLAH! its like from the start, can tell she's the hao-lian kinda piece of shit lor. dog eyes see people low that kind. i know, im prolly also cannot eat the grapes and calling the grapes sour. but thats my business. ok, here's why the few of us can't stand her:
1. she keeps asking about education stuff. like to my colleagues who are both sisters.. one of the sister stopped school at sec school. so she asked the other sister "oh, so you're like your sister? stopped at sec sch too?" KNN. walao. damn .. zzz can!
2. she was assigned to the back one leh. then she kept rushing forward to talk to the visitors although there were ENOUGH people already. and she even went to in front of the entrance to greet the people. and when she greets, she shouts?
3. her makeup is damn thick la. its like, her face and neck are 2 different tones?
4. yeah, so she likes to be in the front right? so the rest of us just go to the middle and talk and laugh. and then, when she pleases, she goes back to the back, leaving the front empty. or if not, she will just sit at the vip lounge de info desk and show off her "sexy" legs
5. halfway through, she's like "omg. i can't wait to go home and watch gossip girl" outloud to herself, but she was kinda talking to me but i just smiled at her.
6. she ran towards me halfway and said "omg. i just attempted to speak japanese" oohh. so wonderful u can speak jap. if u suceeded, maybe u can show off. but u cant even succeed then .. why show off?
she's the typical agree-with-you-in-your-face-so-you'll-ask-her-about-herself-and-she-can-show-off kinda person lor. then she's all goody two shoes in front of our supervisor, also another bitch, colon ar. her nickname we gave her. walao. zzzz. maybe thank god i didnt go local unis anyway. confirm have this kinda backstabbing bitch preying on those geeky students who don't really know that such monsters lurk around them.
phew. feels good to just rant it out. bloody luohan. it has been really quiet in my life uh, these days. maybe all my friends are chased off by me. lol! oh welll. shall sleep early again tonight. ciao~ had a GREAT walk home just now anyway. wonderfully beautiful backdrop. and standing for the past 9 hours just made me treasure my old and squeaky chair more. [:
Monday, June 14, 2010
rambles
omg. so angry. just now, we took a cab from raffles city home.. and there were so many cabs right? so we just walked to the taxi stand and just nice, another guy and his dad or wad, reached too. we actually reached first, cus we were supposed to take the first cab but it was taken by this group of indian people. so we went to the one behind. then my mum opened the door and that fucking lanjiaokia shouted at my mum "YO! we are here!" then my mum just said "go ahead, take the cab". i was really sleepy. if i wasn't, i would have said "chivalry is fucking dead". BLAH! i dun swear in front of my parents anyway. but what kind of fucking man is that?! fucking gay! go die la. ass. so lame. not say there was only 1 cab. there was a queue of taxis behind leh! WALAO. fucking knnccb. somemore shouting at someone ur mum's age?! really?! no respect at all. lame.
ok. so left hse at abt 5 to go suntec to get a black blouse for work for the next 4 days. well, i really ren ok? sigh! didn't buy anything at all. until i walked past times. im a book whore la! i love buying books although i know, the solution is something called the library. but owning my own books is a thrill. and guess what book i got? Sex and the city 2! omg. im so in love with the bling bling cover! plus it has everything about sex and the city! and i signed up for Times membership. i should have done so a loooooong time ago. stupid me. and then i got myself a cup of tall lemon hibsicus from starbucks. its the next best thing after java chip and iced mocha. [:
omg. today is 14th june. guess what is it? its fucking MIKA's concert!!!!!!! omg. ]: i shall have my mini MIKA concert at home..its bedtime for me. long day tomorrow. sian or sian? GAHH! ]: i dont care already. the next time my favourite band/singer comes and no one wants to come along, im still going to go ahead anyway.
ok. so left hse at abt 5 to go suntec to get a black blouse for work for the next 4 days. well, i really ren ok? sigh! didn't buy anything at all. until i walked past times. im a book whore la! i love buying books although i know, the solution is something called the library. but owning my own books is a thrill. and guess what book i got? Sex and the city 2! omg. im so in love with the bling bling cover! plus it has everything about sex and the city! and i signed up for Times membership. i should have done so a loooooong time ago. stupid me. and then i got myself a cup of tall lemon hibsicus from starbucks. its the next best thing after java chip and iced mocha. [:
omg. today is 14th june. guess what is it? its fucking MIKA's concert!!!!!!! omg. ]: i shall have my mini MIKA concert at home..its bedtime for me. long day tomorrow. sian or sian? GAHH! ]: i dont care already. the next time my favourite band/singer comes and no one wants to come along, im still going to go ahead anyway.
20 and fabulous!
Thank god for sex and the city! the genius behind sex and the city, omg! thank U! i know i've been feeling low and despair about leaving the teens and thinking that life is serious and all from the step on.. thank god for friends and sex and the city. carrie bradshaw said somthing right, at 20, you make the mistakes. at 30, you pay for the mistakes. at 40, you pay the bills. was watching sex and the city the whole day. i loooove sex and the city! it just made me stronger. samantha is such a sexpot, but she's such a good friend. i would love to lead samantha's life. although she has jerod, she knew he wasn't for her. thats samantha, not the woman who would wait for her man to come home! ahhahaha. omgggggg. i AM 20 and fabulous. don't know why i'm sulking!! LOL! work hard shirley lim! because i wanna go to new york city to fall in love and buy labels too! hahaha! hahahaha. omgggggg. i so love the girls!!!! [: i was snacking and have been eating calories-laden food these days. its time to stop and go back to dieting! hahahha. i'm going to step into the highlights of my life and i'd better look ready for it anyway! =D
Sunday, June 13, 2010
i don't think a good camera is all it takes to take a good picture. i don't think its the skills either. i know im not a photographer and judging from the quality of my pictures, i am no judge. i can't even call myself amateur. but i feel that a good picture tells a story. i feel a good photographer, should already know the story he/she wants to potray in his/her pictures and when they sucessfully deliver that story, its a success. its not really how clear or how abstract it is. i feel, an excellent photographer i would think of, is the writer of dooce.com, heather Armstrong. because the reason people made cameras in the first place was to capture those special moment. and honestly, what story does a random cup of starbucks tell? i mean, i see people taking photos of EVERYTHING, from a cup of latte to toilet signs. really? is there a story u wanna tell or is it just to show off your expensive equipment? doesn't this abuse the reason why someone made a camera anyway? hmm... just random rants. nothing much.
how does it feel like to have fun?
sigh. although alot of events has happened since the last exams, i don't think i have had much fun as compared to before exams. it felt like, i basically went through those events... just feeling superficially happy and not the through-and-through-ly happy. just, i don't really know how to have fun these days. really. i feel like i'm actually holding alot of myself back when i am supposed to be having fun. its like, i forgot how to just let loose and let all the lame shit poop out of my mouth anymore. only with some people that my verbal nonsense can work. with other people, its quiet and awkward and formal. its fucking so not me. just.. its just not me to hold back, especially after poly. it WAS me to hold back when in secondary school. but i'd rather be looked upon like a fool than to be all uptight and serious. i used to wanna beat the stereotypes and create a profile of my own. these days, im slowly falling into the moulds of society's stereotypes. i've painted my toenails BLACK! thats stereotypical. i've dyed my hair back to its original colour. stereotype. im wearing tees and shorts/skirts.. stereotypical. what happened to the girl who refuses to fall in and follow everyone else? where was the shirley who wanted create a style of her own and happiness in her own definition? why am i following people again? why am i so lethargic and lazy to think on my own feet? omg. how the hell am i going to bring me back? i used to be... sensitive about how people feel... i used to be less selfish. i used to care about what people think and thats why, i try to be as people-pleasing as i can. but when i try to become more me and me, i feel selfish. sigh. maybe i'm never the sociable one. like in primary school. maybe, deep in the core of me, i'm a wallflower. ]: gahhhhh. Life ahead.................................................. looks sooooo gloomy. shoo dark clouds, shoo!
random thoughts on a sunday evening
heyy. haven't been online for almost 2 days and i've never felt more human than ever. just to show off a little, i have been staying in festive hotel in RWS. dad got some voucher and we invited lorr and her family over to stay. it was awesome. so much fun and laughter. it feels really nice to have 2 groups of people in my life i can call family. my own and gugu's family! its like, they scold their children like they would if i were their siblings. they'd talk about their neighbour as though im part of them. its like, on weekends when my own family is busy, they'd invite me over to their place for food and fun. hahah. always love to hang around with them!
went to cut my hair today after checkout and shopped abit and watched "dear john" at lorr's place. [: wanted to read then head to bed. i have no idea why i came online for? i feel more and more distant being online than not. i mean, i come online and ... ? checked fb.. checked twitter.. and i guess, besides blogging, this is why i come online:
Vienna.
to remind me of why i wanna work hard. i seriously think that the fun times of my life is over. quiet life. i need to adjust to this quiet life. i just feel so restless being so quiet! so, nothing going on. maybe, its the calm before the storm? oh please! don't let there be any storms. suddenly feel like watching the world cup. LOL. hmmmm. going to read then.. before i sleep. cheerios.
went to cut my hair today after checkout and shopped abit and watched "dear john" at lorr's place. [: wanted to read then head to bed. i have no idea why i came online for? i feel more and more distant being online than not. i mean, i come online and ... ? checked fb.. checked twitter.. and i guess, besides blogging, this is why i come online:
Vienna.to remind me of why i wanna work hard. i seriously think that the fun times of my life is over. quiet life. i need to adjust to this quiet life. i just feel so restless being so quiet! so, nothing going on. maybe, its the calm before the storm? oh please! don't let there be any storms. suddenly feel like watching the world cup. LOL. hmmmm. going to read then.. before i sleep. cheerios.
cui
im so sleepy. came bk from lorraine's hse. Last night stayed at festive hotel at rws. Me and lorr squeezed in the double decker bed. V cosy. Havent been online for a while. Too sian. I bought sex and the city dvd! Yeahhh! Can watch later or what. Gotta work. Fuck. Tuesday blues in advance.
Friday, June 11, 2010
just thinking..
i had an enjoyable day today and yesterday! i guess, when your friends are busy and its hard to meetup, meetups become really enjoyable and are like treasure!
yesterday met up with reggie to go to the beach. went to giant to get groceries, like chips and bread... and then we headed to sentosa! lol! the funny thing was, i think its a new rule for employees at USS to wave everytime the monorail moves off. and it was very funny when some of the staff were waving lar, but reluctantly. its really very funny that we laughed till we drew quite a bit of attention! hahaa. we will sure dio karma one lor, considering that we're also in the service line ourselves. headed to the beach, walked abit to the quiet spot, laid our towels and just eat first! so hungry. had fried mushies and random calories-laden food. then we just laid down and took lotsa photos of the beautiful sky, our surroundings and us! not sure when i can meet up with her again. the endlessly beautiful sky never fails to make me think that the sky is the limit. then we headed to universal studios for the $2 per entry thing. went until half of new york. ate at mel's drive in, at last! the burger is really juicy though! we took pictures and bought their merchandise as though we've never been in USS in our lives before. hahaha. then we purposed bounced back just to see them wave. v jian la. but.. =p then we went home..
then today, met up with martini and nei to send chantel off. lucky her! get to be the tai tai we all dream to be! hahahah. [: shiok! headed to t3 to eat popeyes. guilt food again. then went to k at marina square! was damn high! hahahaha. and funny. i kept giggling and laughing out loud when we sang songs like "jai ho" and "low" where we can hardly rap. LOL! after that, rushed to clementi to meet hc and anita to go turf city. had jap buffet. GUILT! sasheeemeeee. hahaha. was abit weird sitting with nei's other friends... but slowly got better. felt better sitting with our own friends! hahahha. happppppy birthday nei! once again, im the youngest in my clique! weee~ but it seems like our clique seems less and less clique-ish by the day. oh well. anyway really had a great time. too lazy to upload pics on blogger cus it takes a gazillion years to upload. so shall wait for sunday ba.
hmmm, i think that i might actually still like winnie the pooh after these years. he has been my good friend and i feel very comfortable being me in front of him during poly years. and yes, i've admit that i have had a crush on pooh once. and i never really thought alot about it. but i really enjoy his company and can never feel as comfortable as being me in front of any other guys i know. he brought alot alot of laughter into my life and i actually felt like telling him how i feel a few times after our graduation. but im not going to. i like feeling a little something for someone. he may not be handsome, or sensitive, or romantic, or smart, or rich... but he's just pooh. just wished, he would tell me that he likes me or wad. but im not gonna ruin our beautiful friendship anyhow. will let fate do the thinking. his sense of humour is what im looking for. his innocence is what that is missing from alot of guys these days. yes, he is insensitive alot of times. but sometimes, u cant get mad at him. cutiepie. maybe, all these while, the reason i havent been able to accept is because my heart's already filled? will not think much. i just wish that our friendship will persist and withstand the test of time anyhow. even if he gets a gf or a wife, i'd be happy for him as his good friend. [:
yesterday met up with reggie to go to the beach. went to giant to get groceries, like chips and bread... and then we headed to sentosa! lol! the funny thing was, i think its a new rule for employees at USS to wave everytime the monorail moves off. and it was very funny when some of the staff were waving lar, but reluctantly. its really very funny that we laughed till we drew quite a bit of attention! hahaa. we will sure dio karma one lor, considering that we're also in the service line ourselves. headed to the beach, walked abit to the quiet spot, laid our towels and just eat first! so hungry. had fried mushies and random calories-laden food. then we just laid down and took lotsa photos of the beautiful sky, our surroundings and us! not sure when i can meet up with her again. the endlessly beautiful sky never fails to make me think that the sky is the limit. then we headed to universal studios for the $2 per entry thing. went until half of new york. ate at mel's drive in, at last! the burger is really juicy though! we took pictures and bought their merchandise as though we've never been in USS in our lives before. hahaha. then we purposed bounced back just to see them wave. v jian la. but.. =p then we went home..
then today, met up with martini and nei to send chantel off. lucky her! get to be the tai tai we all dream to be! hahahah. [: shiok! headed to t3 to eat popeyes. guilt food again. then went to k at marina square! was damn high! hahahaha. and funny. i kept giggling and laughing out loud when we sang songs like "jai ho" and "low" where we can hardly rap. LOL! after that, rushed to clementi to meet hc and anita to go turf city. had jap buffet. GUILT! sasheeemeeee. hahaha. was abit weird sitting with nei's other friends... but slowly got better. felt better sitting with our own friends! hahahha. happppppy birthday nei! once again, im the youngest in my clique! weee~ but it seems like our clique seems less and less clique-ish by the day. oh well. anyway really had a great time. too lazy to upload pics on blogger cus it takes a gazillion years to upload. so shall wait for sunday ba.
hmmm, i think that i might actually still like winnie the pooh after these years. he has been my good friend and i feel very comfortable being me in front of him during poly years. and yes, i've admit that i have had a crush on pooh once. and i never really thought alot about it. but i really enjoy his company and can never feel as comfortable as being me in front of any other guys i know. he brought alot alot of laughter into my life and i actually felt like telling him how i feel a few times after our graduation. but im not going to. i like feeling a little something for someone. he may not be handsome, or sensitive, or romantic, or smart, or rich... but he's just pooh. just wished, he would tell me that he likes me or wad. but im not gonna ruin our beautiful friendship anyhow. will let fate do the thinking. his sense of humour is what im looking for. his innocence is what that is missing from alot of guys these days. yes, he is insensitive alot of times. but sometimes, u cant get mad at him. cutiepie. maybe, all these while, the reason i havent been able to accept is because my heart's already filled? will not think much. i just wish that our friendship will persist and withstand the test of time anyhow. even if he gets a gf or a wife, i'd be happy for him as his good friend. [:
Thursday, June 10, 2010
sry! i gotta enjoy being a lifer while i can! hahaha. finally prepared nei's present! for his celebration tmr! [: the reason im putting effort for tmr's dinner and outing is because im scared that this will be the last time our clique will meet and honestly, nei is one of the best guys i've known.. and he brought alot of laughter into my life. so yup. [: ok. gonna sleep now.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
omggggggggg. this show is damn addictive! can feel bimbotic vibes coming alive! and how can Annie be 15 years old only? gosh... so lucky sia. ahhaha! love love love this show. i am on Ethan's side! but Ty's soooo sweet also! shit. 3rd epi up next!!
and their advice on breakups: hookup is the best cure for a breakup! naise.
omggg. naomi's father buys her a Mercedes because he can't take her to coldplay's concert! LOL! u gotta love 90210!
updates: beverly hills ain't as glam as it looks like. suuuperrrr love this show! heeheee
annie's grandmother is fuckinngggg funny!!!!! LOL!
hahahhahahaa. looooooove it!
tsssssssssssssssssssssk. how can Ty blow Annie off like that! wow.
zomg. i can really cringe at this show man! why does the end of every episode feels like a happily ever after! haha
omg. turns out the "real bitch" isn't such a bitch afterall. and its the bitch's sidekick who is the true bitch. wow. luckily annie didnt sleep with ty. oh well. but ty is innocent also. bloody adrianna!
stopped at episode 5. gonna sleep now. woooot! more 90210 tmr!
and their advice on breakups: hookup is the best cure for a breakup! naise.
omggg. naomi's father buys her a Mercedes because he can't take her to coldplay's concert! LOL! u gotta love 90210!
updates: beverly hills ain't as glam as it looks like. suuuperrrr love this show! heeheee
annie's grandmother is fuckinngggg funny!!!!! LOL!
hahahhahahaa. looooooove it!
tsssssssssssssssssssssk. how can Ty blow Annie off like that! wow.
zomg. i can really cringe at this show man! why does the end of every episode feels like a happily ever after! haha
omg. turns out the "real bitch" isn't such a bitch afterall. and its the bitch's sidekick who is the true bitch. wow. luckily annie didnt sleep with ty. oh well. but ty is innocent also. bloody adrianna!
stopped at episode 5. gonna sleep now. woooot! more 90210 tmr!
New love
Omg. how i wished i found 90210 earlier! just when im about to get busy, i find a nice drama series to follow - 90210! omggg. suay! hahaha. but luckily its only 24 epis in season 1! shudn't be a prob. and omgggg. Ethan is damnnnn hot!
gahh! really looks like john krasinski but in a slightlyyy better shape. yay to 90210!!!!
omg. his name is Ty. he owns his own private jet and omg.. he can speak italian.
they should have a quota for the number of hot guys appearing on this show!
gahh! really looks like john krasinski but in a slightlyyy better shape. yay to 90210!!!!
omg. his name is Ty. he owns his own private jet and omg.. he can speak italian.they should have a quota for the number of hot guys appearing on this show!
Perrrrrfecto!
Just checked out F21!
if this ring isn't perfect for me, i dont know what is! i shall be waiting for its arrival to singapore!
Chio belt!
hmmm, simple but nice!
if this ring isn't perfect for me, i dont know what is! i shall be waiting for its arrival to singapore!
Chio belt!
hmmm, simple but nice!
zomggg!! should i get these??
Shoe fetish is back! and its wedges this time! i've been looking high and low for nice wedges!!! and omg. look at what i found! feel like getting all of them!
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