had quite a nice friday yesterday. went out with morgan. had a "splurge day". sigh. our bimbotic feel not there liao. ahhaa. too long never bimbo plus, im aleady broke. and still coughing like a hyena! damn.. ya. but nonetheless, sitll had a good time just hanging out. went mediacorp to collect my prize: the keyboard!! which im using. but still not used to it, so alot of typo.. hahaha! comes with a mouse also. then had sushi tei. then walked around.. and omg. im damn in love with this pair of shorts from miss selfridge, dmannn... then went to sommerset to make mummy's cake. lol! then went ta meet family for dinner. then went home to celebrate birthday. ahhaha.
sigh. i dont have the mood to blog. im just forcing it out. but ya. sian la. dont know why. haiz. today went to the temple to pray grandma and grandpa for qing ming jie. hmm. u know usually, i will pray for a lot of things, but i will always start off with "pls let me find a bf!" lol. i know, despo right? but ya. but this year.. i started off with "please let my loved ones be healthy and happy".. followed by a request to let me get into smu. not asking for a bf this time. haha. cus i guess, i really dont belong in the dating world. i know, im blogging about these dating stuff right? and its getting boring. sian la. i really dont feel like myself ever since after graduating. OMG SHIRLEYYYYY COME BACKKKKKKK. ]: i guess, the reason why i have been chirpy and happy was majorly because of my poly life. i want it back. but now i can't, its hard to create a new life. sigh..
piccies:
i pasted this on her toilet door at night,, hhahhaha
i do have a recent fetish for avocados. lol! according to bro, its fruit butter.
outside the toilet. waiting for time to pass. and to rest feet
new keyboard!
hahaha. ok. maybe im suagu.. but... this is awesome! no longer have to stretch my fingers..! and.. i can now use one hand to do ctrl alt delete. X= hahahahah!
mummy's cake. decorated by me!aye. im gg to bed. anwyays, heres rougly what i feel about myself. i was telling this to reggie, and i think this summarises what i am now:
This is it. says:
u know
i realise
the problem is me eh
ever since
after exams
i havent been myself
its like
i find it hard
to be happy again?
maybe because
all these while
i have always had a poly life behind me
filled with my clique ... u.. and everybody else
and now..
its gone
i know its lame
but
if u realised
our convos havent been like last time right?
and i really try to be myself again
but i cant
as in
something is missing
and i feel q empty
alot
huh? says:
yeah
i know
This is it. says:
as in
i really dont know how to be.. myself again
even last time
when we were stressed and fucked
i didnt feel empty
i feel q. emotionless at times
its not just with u that things are bcoming boring
with morgan
even with my cousin
its like..
not the same as last time?
ARGHH. I HATE IT WHEN I LOSE MYSELF. hate it to the max. sigh. sometimes, i just feel that im all alone because everybody just have their own lives. and im usually good at coping with being alone. just not recently. sigh. no matter how much i convince myself. aye. gnna sleep. bye.
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