random thoughts

These 2 days have been like, an emotional reflection for me! sunday went out to lorraine and we were chatting about the past and about what we thought and about our lives... so much so, we actually cried together.. in a public place. of course, not the loud wail, but just... tears. i never really knew she went through so much. i never knew she knew that i went through alot too. she's literally my sister. hahaha! i mean, really leh. it was totally a detoxifying session for my soul. it just made me feel blessed that i actually had someone who knew the stuff i went through in my childhood. i thought no one remembered. why wouldn't i remember? but it has been so long ago, i'd rather not mention it anymore. but.. yeah. felt fucking good after talking to her. [: jiayou yeah, lorraine!! it not only goes for ur studies, but ur love life also!! hahahahhaha!

then yeah, today, i was so looking forward to saba-ing with the gang. and it really kept my mood going. and finally understood how the phrase "absence makes the heart grows fonder" works. i found my econs file in the lecture hall. thank goodness!! ahhaha. and also, yeah, although alot has happened.. but im just glad to be back with the boomzers again. the feeling as i've mentioned earlier was different from the rest. i feel at home with them. like, i can just take my shoes off and be who i am.. instead of looking pretty and stuff.

ok, so, i've actually burned off some econs time to do this.. before-after pics thing. [: i think its quite a good reflection! hopefully, 2 more years later, i'd be better than i am today. physically, psychologically, emotionally too. honestly, im quite scared because i really cannot see myself getting married and attached and belonging to some other ppl, other than me.

me and lorraine.

me and morgan

me and sx and emsy

me and chantel

me!! but comparing both proms of my life. x=

well. goodnight!

and thank you my friends!