Empty..

honestly, i was perfectly fine before my birthday but suddenly, after all the celebrations died down, i felt so so so empty inside. im 20. about to step into adulthood. i have no idea what i should change. who i should be anymore. i felt so independant before 12 sept. now, i feel like i just need to hold on to someone for emotional support just like when we entered primary 1 and needed our mummies to hold our hands into the classroom and let the teacher hold on from there. i need that kind of support now. i guess, before 12 sept.. everything was boomz! i had great work, great colleague, i was meeting up with my friends.. i still had what i want. i was emotionally independant. after 12 sept.. my 2 emotional pillars were kinda gone. and i was supposed to be a young adult. and suddenly, life felt so quiet. so i needed to be in imaginationland everyday to get through. really. i had to "borrow" someone to get me through for a while until i can stand on my own... kinda like trainee wheels. yeah. sigh.