joker

i must be a butt of jokes to some of u reading my blog. what kind of pathetic life im leading and still daring to blog about them? And stupid enough to not put passwords on it. Really had no energy to smile.. went IT fair w bro and i was supposed to feel happy he got his camera. Bt i couldnt smile. Just can feel happy for him. But, ya. Im a pathetic sister. Really a shit one. And a great big fool who just amuses people. Yup. Im always the girl who will hardly listen to herself. And now im becoming the girl who listens too much to myself. Im jreally... Really... Frustrated with life? Really. Im already 20 and i am still so childish. Nt knowing how to take care of myself. Aboth emotionally and physically. And if im waiting for someone like oprah or tyra to come and scold me and wake me up in front of millions of pwople, that probably isnt coming true. How do i walk out of this? I need an answer! I wanna know.. How do i start my life afresh and really do it as i've said it.. On my own. With myself? Alot of things cannot be trusted. Sometimes living things. Sometimes non-living. And either ways.. The only way is to just do it on my own. Without watching too much family guy
Without depending too much on my friends. Sounds like a loner doesnt it? But sometimes, when we see someone being outcasted.. We feel sorry for them. God knows if they are actually wayy happier than us? They are free from pressure society put on the rest of us to remain sociable even if it means to lose ourselves. Yup. Hah. So silly. Am going to bed now. U know.. I really need to move on. I know i need to. But.. Yup. But luckily.. Sly ca