Basically was watching tv from 6.30pm to 11pm. lol! i havent watched tv this long in a while now. they said that no good will come out of watching tv? Well, i beg to differ. 8pm they were showing this show called "从心开始" and it featured this woman who will talk about her life. she came from an un-loving family where she was the middle child and so she went to work at an early age. she met this guy, they steaded for 6 years, got engaged at last. and before the wedding banquet, he cheated on her with a new colleague he met a month earlier and because he was her everything, she lost it and became depressed. honestly, who wouldnt? then she ran into an accident and got so ill, she had to take 30 pills everyday. and she tried to kill herself so often, it didnt succeed. so she went on this show to make herself feel better.. and honestly, i dont really pity her. i mean, yea, its sad and all.. but kill urself and ruin ur life over a guy? u know which part of the show inspired me tho? it was the host, quan yi fong. she herself was recently, a divorcee and has a daughter to raise, and so may shows to host. and yet, at this kinda show, she can still pick herself up, listening to women who has to go through wad she had without any complaints and help them? although, i bet because of the media and stress, its harder for her because she can't collapse in front of cameras like that woman. we dont even know how she really feels.. but she makes it look all so easy. she really is an inspiration to me. i guess, no matter how good an actress you are, acting happy is always the toughest. its harder than acting sad. so yup. and here i was, complaining about something so small and non-existent. wasting my life on junk food these few days. thats why i fell ill. i cant even treasure my health, and complaining about lack of friends. what the hell. i have lotsa friends. lol! and i always never really treasure them. so silly ar?
then 9pm was "五福到".. and the story was on beethoven and that girl. omg. i cried like mad. hahah. and its cus their love is sooooo.... selfless. hahaha. secretly, i anna love a guy so much, i becomes selfless. hopefully can find such a guy eventually. no rush there. but their love, its really very nice. hahahah. but anyway, the main point was.. wufu told beethoven justbefore he caught his plane.. "我宁愿做一个开心的笨蛋, 也不要做一个不开心的聪明人" it simply means that he'd rather be a happy fool than an unhappy smartypants. i get what he means. not really sure how to put it in words. hmm, i guess what it means is, just follow your heart. if you ever feel that your heart feels a certain way and ur brain tells you its not right.. maybe u shud follow your heart. i mean, it isnt the quantity of your life that matters, but the quality of it. so, if it makes u happy, go for it?! so yup.. i guess it applies for life also!
then at 10pm, i watched this documentary on OKTO called "Indian Finishing School" and it was so inspiring! its about sending these 4 really rude/selfish/rowdy/gangsterish brits to india to learn and change. and seeing the times when they visited the slums and the kinda of happiness the indians can spread to them made me smile too. they were very rude to their culture. but they changd a lot, even the rude guy whom i hated a lot from the start. the change is surprising and shocking. hahaha.
and not forgetting, this morning when i watched "the Rachel Ray show" and it featured Bette Midler, oscars winning actress who was famous in the golden period of hollywood. omg! she was so damn funny! and also another inspiration! at that age, she can still perform shows every night in Vegas and still take care of her family. she is wow! hhaha!
so, once again, my point being.. i have always put "good prospects" as an excuse to study accountancy and be an accountant. but what exactly are good prospects? happiness? money? what? i guess, i really wanna write. and be the travel journalist i wanna be. and eventually, write about politics. and about world news. and my opinions on them. and not be the frog in this well called singapore. i wanna see whats in it outside the borders of my home and comfort zone. i wanna exprience them for myself. i wanna lead my life to the fullest. i guess, even if i do have to carry on being an accountant, which i really hope i won't.. but i kinda chose those courses for uni already x= ... i guess i can't stop from knowing about global issues and things. i can read.. there's always the internet. hahah! so.. yup i know, i sound alittle too overjoyed especially after all the past emo posts i have put up. but hey, people change!
so, im going to take better care of myself when i recover. because if i dont love myself, who should i expect to love me? (:
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