yesterday was really an interesting day cus morgan and xiin went to audition for teenage kpop dance competition and well, they may only have gotten a "maybe" but in my hearts, they're already winners :D and morgan spending her last day as a teen at a teenage event, sure is meaningful as hell! hahha. :D sushi tei-ed after that. super love them. bought morgan some cute cupcakes from centrepoint. haha. glad she loved it.
Well, i've decided to go offline so that i'll be able to drag myself away from this laptop. well, its 11.45pm now. a brand new start for me starts in about 6 hours time. i feel a mixture of sadness and fear, but more of sadness. cus well, when tomorrow begins, it officially means that my definition of going to school will no longer be: meeting up with boomzers and walking up er mei shan. i might be walking alone for the next 2 years. and maybe with a different group of people. whatever the outcome is, im just sad that it will no longer happen. but luckily, just now watched "the devil" with nei and anita. and honestly, it made the pre-school jitters alot alot better. i felt like crying and hugging them because of this mixed feelings and i was close to tears in the bus. but, i won't cry anymore. as my fellow soulpancakers tell me, its a new start and who knows what will happen. at the most, when the going gets tough, i'll rewind and think of my friends who have been there and all the good and happy memories of SP. im scared too, cus i'll probably be the few who's going in alone and i am pretty shy at meeting new people. well, so officially, its goodbye SP shirley.. and hello SIM shirley. nonetheless, the core is still the same. i'm going to be strong and suck it up and walk on with a smile, because i can. and because my loved ones would one to see me like that and not a big sack of frowns. i'll do it for them, i'll do it for me. :)
okay. its so sad life has to move on. sigh. but i do hope that, we'll be friends and best of friends, no matter what happens. :) super super super gonna miss them. i feel like crying again. omg. what happened to me??? and i really dont dare tell albsie i've been crying. i mean, his life in ns is probably tough. i dont wanna make it worse. so, yeah. ohhh fuck ohhh fuck. ok la. here goes. goodnight world. goodnight memories. goodnight my dearest darling last night as being the SP girl. :')
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