yeah. the title says it all.bloody start to the day. i wonder, if i don't get pregnant, will i be menstruating and going through all these pain and sufferings in vain?
have been a bit busy past couple of nights. met up with reggie for sakae sushi dinner at tiong bahru on tuesday night. was naise chatting up. hahhaha. hmm... and last night met up with the girls and huiwen! so longggg since i met her. abit awkward initially but i feel she hasnt changed much! hahaha. but yeah, we kept talking about the past. hmmm... yup.. i love the fish from astons. feel like having it tonight but gonna eat steamboat with colleagues.
sigh. bro and mum going Shanghai. gosh! i would loveee to go shanghai. but they're going for like 4 school days leh. im not sure how the system is like yet, plus im going to have 2 modules without friends. so, i dont think i can afford it... sigh! as in, its too risky. especially after the panick attack for econs, theres no way im gonna risk it again. so ya. but shanghai! its the place i would most wanna visit in China!! i feel its so.... sophisticated. GAH!
ever since i got the extra money, i've been shopping. finally got stuff from modcloth. i tell u, i regretted the instant i clicked confirm. i just realised the heftiness of the shipping fee! omg! well, i wont reveal it here, but its an amount enough to splurge with satisfaction in F21. and yeah, last night spent almost $200 on toiletries and beauty stuff which i have been putting off for the past couple of months cus of me being broke. but boy, did it feel soooooooooooooooooooo good splurging, even if its at watsons! god knows how long ago i buy things i WANT and not just need. i MUST splurge at f21 and toppie this month. bday month RULES! bday month + having-alot-of-extra-income month totally rocks my boat. i haven't felt sooo.... happy (in the area of shopping) in MONTHS! but of course, i will put a portion into my london funds before i ... -rubs hands- go SHOPPPPINGGG!!! but then, this year, im gonna learn from past years. i'm not going to splurge on things i like on the spot. i will think about it then go back, unless i've already been desiring for a long time. ZOMG! i can't wait to go shopping. omg!!! and since school is starting, im gonna dye hair and also get new stationery as well!
i know, alot of u reading my blog have seen the days where i only have $5 in my savings account. and you must be shaking your head at the above paragraph. and yes, i do know your kind intentions. i promise not to buy on impulse la. i mean, shopping HAS ALWAYS been a HUGE part of my life. i guess its there to fill the void where love, relationships should be at. i guess its this because usually when i feel that im in love, i seldom shop. haha. and vice versa. but going around shops, looking at trends, looking at the beautiful prints/ designs/ fabric/ accessories/ shoes/ furniture/ random cute stuff is like an instinct for me. i just need to do that. i just love the feeling of getting what i like/ want! ahahaha. but then, after going through the feeling of being broke and scrimping and just.. walking away from all these goddamnit beautiful things which i want, it reduces the shopaholic in me to dwarf size. i guess people call that growing up. i loook more for the quality rather than quantity. i look more for love for the item rather than just wanting it. furthermore, nowadays (apart from the recent modcloth spree), i will look at the item/s and decide if its worth giving up travelling for! hahaha. yeah. its a good motivation. but damn! i need new clothes and nice shoes! hahah!
and also, recently, i gotta know this girl called Serene from MOM. she knows how to groom dogs, she has her own online shop and shes also in uol. i've been looking at part time courses and i might wanna pick up a new skill. and to do so, i need the money. im looking more at the arts side. well, no one knows this, but i secretly have always wanted to know if i have the potential in interior design. hahaa. i know la, its silly. hmm, i dont know la. wanting and doing it is 2 different matters. so, just exploring my options. haha.
yup. hmmm, feels good to blog. the office is god damn quiet. and im so sick of getting scolded day in day out. sigh! as much as i wished this would all end, i wished it wouldn't. i dont wanna go to school. sigh!
anyway, i feel that i have quite a lot of feelings for him still. oh well. better to not dwell into the "forbidden" area of life! hahaa. okay la, im gonna shit. tummy damn pain. hahaha. maybe will blog later. fuck my work. gahhh!
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