White Picket Offense

White Picket Offense

Perrrrrfecto!

Just checked out F21!


if this ring isn't perfect for me, i dont know what is! i shall be waiting for its arrival to singapore!

Chio belt!

hmmm, simple but nice!

zomggg!! should i get these??

Shoe fetish is back! and its wedges this time! i've been looking high and low for nice wedges!!! and omg. look at what i found! feel like getting all of them!

A horse at heart

heyhey! headed to pixar exhibition ytd with benny. haha. have been wanting to go and it was good. it would have been better if i actually slept earlier the night before. it was super amazing to actually learn how the animation actually worked behind the scenes and to see how the magicians actually can create something so magical. but the sad thing was there was only a teeny weeny section on UP. which is the one i was most looking forward to. Up is the bestest animation film i have ever caught. i would say, after shrek and tarzan. the storyline and the characters are hard to forget. little dialogue but unforgettable scenes. russell will forever be the cutest boy i'll ever know! hahhaa. after that, headed to swensons for dinner and went home. watched tv and then chatted with friends awhile and headed to bed.

woke up today at about 1pm. watched price is right. LOL. what better way to start a day than to listen to drew carrey's hearty laughter and voice the moment i woke up [: made some cup noodles. then went to pack up my poly notes. well, clearing up the last of what reminds me of my SP campus life and putting them into the blue recycling bag really is nostalgic. SP will be the best thing that has ever ever happen to me. packed some notes for Georgey boy. put in my sweet valley books according to book number into the box and now its neat and tidy in a corner. also prepared rough paper stack for SIM. past exam papers printed on one side.. notes too. haha. ok, i now need to stock up on random stationery to be fully equipped for my road to university. i really feel less excited as i used to think i would have for university. but my goal would be to: get out of UOL with a degree and hopefully with merit and pursue a masters hopefully in london. and when i come out, i wanna work and earn alot of money with decent breaks per year for me to travel to every single city featured on the weather reports. [: thought about it well and well. whether im going to go these cities alone, with friends, with good friends, with family or just people who share similar interest, i will travel to a different city every single year! so, at least now, i do have something in life to look forward to. plus, im following quite a few travel bloggers on twitter. so nice to see them blog about something new they've seen and heard everyday. i would very much wanna do that. whether i'm exploring a city, or the suburbs, or countryside, i wanna do that very very much. [:

which leads me to the title of this blogpost as well as my current tweet - a horse at heart. i've thought through it last night and actually alot of times, i actually think through it. do i really wanna be attached? for more than half my teenage life, i have been pursuing dreams of having a good boyfriend. steven being the longest standing crush of my life. haha. 3 years. brian shohei teo remains the best catch i will ever have a crush upon. sly will be the best date and the most perfect chemistry guy i've ever met although he was a fucking jerk in the end. tommy will also be one of the unforgettable guys i'll ever know.. i know it isn't alot. i've got friends who only had 1 guy in their entire lives. and i have known people, very close people, who will have more steads thus far than i will ever have in my entire life. we always chase for girls and boys with the image of happily ever after and for that someone who will love us just the way we are. like mr darcy. i am to, who wouldn't. but as someone very wise (you know who you are) reminded me, love goes both ways. i am lucky to ever have loved and been loved once before, although it was a very brief period. but i guess what im looking for, is that again. through these guys in my life and because of age itself, i would dare say that i've slowly learned to become less and less dependent on them. i daresay that right now, i am very happy to be on my own. i have wonderful friends surrounding me. i have a goal in my life now. i have a very loving family who loves me. everyday, i fill my life up with the happiness bgr can't give. don't i wanna have a change and see what life can give me? well. not at the moment. im really loving it the way it is. i have hardly anything to complain about. yeah, i will definitely be envious of my friends and their hot/loving boyfriends. but i guess, i dont really hate complaining about such stuff. everyone has resentment, in a relationship or not. sometimes we work so hard to achieve something and before we even enjoy the rewards, we want to go higher. like when i go on holidays, when we took about half an hour to climb the hill, we only look at the breath-taking view for 10 minutes and everyone were in a rush to get down to go off to some other place. so i guess, to put it in that context, i'm just spending a longer time looking at the breath-taking view before coming down. like today, just kicking back, planning for nathan's surprise birthday dinner, watching random tv shows while making comments out loud, blogging, eating the magnum ice cream in the fridge, sipping the hot green tea beside me makes me relaxingly happy. it isn't heart-beat racingly happy. but i love this. honestly. im not trying to sugar coat my life. lol! because i have been raised in a very strict and uptight family environment, i always look forward to freedom and being carefree. i do believe that having horse as a zodiac has a lot to do with this too. maybe, i love the feeling of running down a never ending meadow by nature. but having cooped up in this urban, concrete jungle that i am, in this closely monitored, controlled family, i treasure my freedom. right now, at 20 years old and slowly able to taste my freedom in bite sizes, i don't think that right now, i would wanna belong to anybody. i don't wanna belong to another person. maybe i'll change my mind when i grow up. but i just wanna belong to me. right now, im too selfish to love anyone at the expense of my freedom. some might say, its ok, just let me love you. but u see, in my opinion, love is to love and be loved in return. if i don't wanna love, i don't wanna be in any relationship. not anytime soon for sure. i'm having a good time just doing the things i want, hanging out with the people i love, reading the things that i wanna read and stuff like that. just doing the things i mentioned BECAUSE I WANT TO, and not because i was told to or obliged to. see.. i hate to be forced to do things. i really hate that feeling. i will still do it but it will not be the best i can do. i'll just do it mediocre-ly to get it over and done with. i do my best only when i wanna do it myself. just like in primary school, when my mum used to force me to do maths tuition. i hated it. when mrs neo caned me, i hated it. but when i went on to sec school and i was slowly inspired by Mrs V. to love maths, i did well in Math because i wanted to practise on my own accord. i realise that everytime some guy comes into my life, he will just turn my world upside down and i always fail to feel like myself anymore. i always cannot remember how it feels to be me when they come in. THIS is me. this is who i am. right now, on this couch, the feeling that surges in and out of my heart. that is me.

this isn't a random post. its just that, i feel that, if i do not blog about this now, i don't know if i'd ever have the time to do so... but recently, alot of things happened. not just to me, but to friends and friend's friends. singletondom isn't as bad as i used to think it was. i'm still young. and i still have alot i want to do. even if i don't ever meet another guy who will make my heart be alive again, i still have myself to rely on. yes, ocassionally, i'd run out of energy. but when that happens, i know i have friends and family and things around me to give me the power to re-charge and move on. the bridget in me will always stay alive. [:

can't wait to bitch at the beach with reggie baby and send chantel off on friday!! might be staying at Festive hotel on saturday and just chillout on sunday i guess. then its work work work all week and then, school school school. and then, holidays. and then, schooling proper. ok. shall shower and make have pek lian's handmade rice dumplings for dinner. i must fast tomorrow. kushinbo buffet and popeyes-ing on friday. OMG. fuck. gonna gym. fuckfcuk. ciao~ [:

should i get this?

should i get this? is not very me. but it'll be nice with shorts and cardigan. good for a lazy day at school. hmmm.. and its only 22.50. fuck.

people who inspire me

1. bridget jones - she tells me how being single can always be fun. haha! and that, every singleton will meet her mr darcy who will love her just the way she is. [:

2. bryan wong - he inspires me to travel and learn while travelling and he keeps the "travel journalist" in me alive.

3. Travis Clarke - he inspires me to be carefree and just do what the heck i want and even twit about it.

4. W Mitchell - he inspires me that if he can overcome his tragedy, i can do anything too.

5. Giyen kim - inspires me to love my mum more.

i'll add to this list when i come across more people i get inspiration from. haha.

I'm either deep winter or deep autumn.

ok, was looking at random websites and i stumbled upon this: Find your perfect colours. hahah! im not sure if i were winter or autumn. although i was very sure that i was deep winter because i definitely prefers navy blue/charcoal grey as compared to honey beige/soft brown. but i like those colours too. then when i did what the instructions told me to, i thought the navy blue really took the attention off my face whereas the honey beige one made me look better. but i dont really like beige stuff. except for beige pumps. lol! been wanting to get nude pumps! i think nude pumps are very elegant. tough abit aunty-ish.


haha. nice flats there! so well, turns out that i'll look good in these colours if i truly were a deep autumn person:


or winter:

so, the simplest way, is to pick out the common colours. hahhaha. which is basically, darker shades. hmmm, maybe i should print this out.

according to angmogirl... this is how a colour chart should look like and the best combi! go check it out. hmmm.. quite.. true actually. hahah. wow! feel like just trying and matching diff colours and all.

sigh. bryan wong always never fail to bring the travel journalist out of me. love reading his blog.

A weird dream and a weird day.

discretion: the following post is very fucking selfish. i know there are people out there who have no chance to get education. but, let me be selfish for today.

i need to blog about this weird dream i had last night. it has been bugging me the whole day today and i need to let it out before i forget about it. i can still remember it very vividly! hahah! ok. here goes:

in the dream, i was friends with tay ping hui, gurmit singh and someone whom i can't recall. then we were watching movie together. suddenly, there was a shooting scene in that movie. and there really was real bullets. and it shot tay ping hui and gurmit singh. then they just lied there with blood coming out of their mouths. then tay ping hui told me that i was a good friend and told me to find the killer. gurmit singh told me to cheer up. LOL. then.. i went back home and i gathered my family members and my cousin's family. and i cried very hard. i might even have cried in real life. i told them that tay ping hui and gurmit were dead. then suddenly, that person whom i cant remember hugged me very tightly. and then tay ping hui and gurmit came thru the door. turns out they said that they were healed at the hospital.

and then, the telephone rang. in real life. wrong number. at 10.30am. blahhh! random dream uh?!?!?! i remember it soooo vividly leh. omg. even until now. hahhaha. so.. after that, tried to sleep but father called me to go down to work. so i went down.. sleepily. was a busy day. but i felt good. just photocopying and stapling the entire day. forgot how tiring standing up the whole day can be. had coffee at 3pm. fuck. now im super wide awake. hence, blogging while its pouring outside with jack johnson playing on my dockers [:

came home to know that timetable is out. basically, its 3.30pm to 6.30pm everyday. alternating between maths and econs. well, as mumsy puts it, its the "yellow ribbon" project. what kind of school life would i wanna lead this time? should i focus on studies this time? instead of trying to make a somebody out of myself like in SP. somebody as in, someone with achievements that are non-academic, has a lot of friends and a busy social life. i'll try to strike a balance. but everyone says its really hard to make friends in SIM. i hope not. and well, since school starts at 3.30pm. i shall start gym-ing ba. before gg to school or sth. and got time to read the papers before going to school. so at least, by the end of sim, will be someone who's in touch with the world. really no mood to go to SIM because it has always been the backup plan of my life. its even worse than broadrick. at least, in broadrick, i knew no one and i can be anyone i want and nobody would have known about my past. in SIM, i would probably have to be similar to what people had me in their minds in SP. i dont mean im going to be a people-pleaser which i was. but i dont like to hurt people. so i'd rather be the people-pleaser which makes me feel better. guess the holidays was a lecture on how to lead a quiet life. i guess, my SIM life would be a quiet one. not looking forward. but at least, it has plans in it. i no longer feel lost. and i dont think theres a masters programme for business for UOL. oh well. maybe can still look forward to summer school. have got no idea what to look forward to. nothing seem to be what i want it to be. since its hard to make friends, there prolly wont be new friends to meet. no 1 year london trip? no favourite modules to look forward to considering i regretted choosing accountancy. not looking forward to life in SIM. not looking forward to life after school in SIM. where i'd prolly look at fb, see my other friends who went overseas/ local uni and then look at where i am and feel fucking inferior. not looking forward to life after graduating from SIM. it might be great if i can get my CPA (Certified Public Accountant) after this. it looks good on my business card i guess. or maybe i'll just continue working at dad's shop. i dunno. its 2 years for me to decide what im going to do for the next 50 years of my life. really short short time. sigh.

what happened to the Shirley who was filled with dreams to travel to the wildest places in the world and doing the craziest things? life is stable, yes. too stable. these days, i dont dare to take risks. i dont really have to mood to step forward and be fun anymore. im no longer planning class outings. im no longer the class clown. i dont feel like being one anymore. i used to think, perhaps, i can make my life a different one from the rest of my friends and lead a more unique life. but now, im back to square one. i AM mediocre. i AM average. i will be. for a long long time. i don't know how to lead the life i want. and its so sad because i will only live my life once. ONE TIME. no more than that. i don't even really dare to ask about going clubbing. i wanna club badly because i guess clubbing brings the most un-stable, rebellious, going-out-of-the-norm self out of me. i hate being mediocre and average. lawrence once said, being average is the worst thing that can happen to someone.

i just discovered something. its not rocket science. just common knowledge that nobody admits.

we only look for people when we need them. at least, most of the time, this is the case.

right? we're all guilty of this. we do this to everybody. our best friends, good friends, parents, family members, maybe even spouses? i used to think, why does he/she call upon me only when they need me? then when i realise that i've been realising this for one too many times, i realised that, its only normal that we're like this. i, too, am guilty as charged. i hardly know of anyone who actually are busy.. but make special time just to ask me how i am without asking for a favour. ask urself this, how often do the people u call friends, do this? how often, do u yourself, ask someone how they are with the really sincere and intentional thought in your heart of being concerned with how their lives are? and even if we do this when we're busy, we look for them because we hope they can relieve stress for us, right? or sth along this line. i used to deny this. now, im admitting and accepting this fact. we're only human. so, if this is normal for humans, then.. i might as well go along. maybe, its just me. maybe i've become so practical through this holidays that i've come up with this pretty cruel theory. maybe it just applies to me. but its sad, isn't it?

lol. im super awake. and it was good to catch up with old friends just now. i keep saying that i wanna be myself and wanna say what i truly think. but is it always necessary to act on your feelings? is being politically correct mean that you're supeficial and fake? whats wrong with wanting people around you to be happy at the cost of your own happiness and even integrity? does this make you phony? does this make you a boot-licker? does this make you someone with no backbone? hmm. see? i believe that for EVERYTHING in the world, no matter how good or how bad we think they are, there ALWAYS will be a good AND bad side to it. always.

so having said that, i guess, i'll just have to figure what's good about SIM. i can think of one only though - tingfang. sigh.

random thoughts

i just realised that my room is one of the greatest prides of my life. hahah! i know it isnt fantastic. hahah! as in, it isnt designed by any interior designer. but its by me. my idea of a perfect house is, it must be filled up with things. everyday things. movie ticket stubs are not rubbish to me. my room is messy, yes.. but it defines me. sadly im nt allowed to paint it.if i could, it would be perfect. but white walls are nice too. at least sometimes, it neutralises me. hhahhaa. my room is my paradise. my room is like my home in my home. its like, it has my culture. hahaha. like my own country like that. i really love it.. i love ikea's showrooms. but i'll never follow their style. the reason its a showroom is because, no one lived in it. nobody's house will ever look like that. ok, maybe not nobody. but its too neat. too cold. no feelings. i love to put stuff into my room and fill it up. my mother calls them clutter. oh well! shall spend a good amount of time this week appreciating my room [: before i have to work and work next week. so bummed at the thought of having to work. but thats my bread. hahhaa.

second random thought, omg. i have a friend, peili. omfg. she's the last person i would think who would shave the side of her head. zomggggg! she has got the balls i never knew she had. she was sooooo feminine and all. zomggggg. she has earned my respect. [:

third random thought, just when i thought i wont eat Oasis (not the band, but the restaurant) anymore, i did. and boy do they have the best hum/cold-tofu-with-pork-floss ever!!! hahaha. hurray for taiwan porridge! plus eating those porridgey porridge, not the sticky type but the watery type reminds me alot of my grandparents and how they always cooked that for my lunch/or when im sick in primary school. love them to bits.

oh well. no more random thoughts. WOW peili. she shocks me. naise. awesome girl! WOOTSIE!

F-U-N

heyhey! so, let me start off with my friday night. friday night, was one of the worst sleep i ever had in the history.. i was super sleepy at first, so i headed to bed at 10 plus. i dozed off till about 12 when i was woken up by my cramps. then went to the loo and i couldnt sleep already. so luckily called b up... then talked till 3.. but still couldn't sleep. so read mr kiasu. then finally managed to sleep and woke up at 6. ]: then went to change pad and finally managed to get decent sleep until 10 plus.. ]]]]: thats why, i always tell guy friends around to treat ur gfs better! see the pain we go thru? even though sometimes girls do get whiny and bitchy, sometimes if its tolerable, bear with it. this time is considered bearable.. i can still remember the times in lower sec and first 2 years of poly life when it was irregular... -shivers- really nightmare. thank god i grew up already.

so i woke up later than expected.. met the girls at cityhall. so nice of them to wait for me [: we were supposed to go marina barrage, but headed to funan instead since it rained. and we went to mindgames cafe. i've always heard about it, but never been there myself. it sure is fun!!! we started by playing cluedo. lol!!!!! i miss playing cluedo with my clique. at the library. but playing with the girls was fun too. especially when me and hong choo started to play with tactics. LOL!!! hongchoo's very very jian ar! hahahahahha. but super fun. especially when anita guessed wrongly..


guess who is miss scarlet? [:

then we tried another game.. called "what do ur friends think of u?" .. where we had to pick out 1 colour to represent ourselves. then we had to pick out a card for another friend. on the card, there's a question like.. "who do you think can do an amazing flamingo dance" and we have to vote for the friend we think fits the description. hahahah. apparently, i got the most votes for that question. please dont ask me why.


thats the voting box there. lol .

then we played this other game called true or false. basically, we had to choose a card, then on the card will be 3 questions. the person who has the card, chooses what question she wants to answer. then she has to roll this true or false dice. if the dice lands on the "true" side, she has to say a true answer to that question. and we have to bet how much we believe that her story is true. like for me .. i was asked "an experience at the zoo" and i said that a snake once slithered right in front of me when i was walking in the zoo. everyone believed its correct. ]: so i lose la. i had to trick them, u see?! hahahah!


those round round things are the chips


then we went on and played another game called "100 really dumb things to do while playing this game" where at our turns, we had to draw a card. if we get an "always" card, we had to do the action immediately. if we got a "whenever" card, we had to do the action when another action is carried out. hahahahah. super hilarious! i had to sing happy birthdya song to me. i had to hold the card and smile at it like i saw a shiny star. i had to kiss something blue. i had to high five everybody at the table. anita had to go to the window and shout "is anybody out there?" hong choo had to hop on her legs. hong choo had to tip toe around her chair. and when spoken to, hong choo had to face the wall, count to ten and say "ready or not, here i come" hahahhahahahahahhahahahahhaa. she's a damn good sport. sharni had to put a card between her knees and walk around her chair. she also had to salute to the nearest wall. lol!!!damn hilarioussss. and we had to do those actions every single round for 8 times. hahahahaha.



hongchoo tip toe-ing around her chair!

lol! these were hongchoo's cards. hahaha

these were the props that came with it.



look like harry potter ar!

hahahaha

hong choo's also! ahaha


us 5!

after that, amanda and sharni had to go. so, the three of us went to marketplace to get food. and headed to marina barrage. just sat there, eat, looked at the beautiful beautiful sunset against the city backdrop view and slowly see the city light up while chatting about friends, boys, our lives. it was soooo relaxed, pleasant to just.. chat. at first, we were complaining about our lives. like how working life sucks. how we never really found true love and stuff.. but by the end of the night, we agreed that our lives weren't so bad afterall [: and was actually very nice in fact. sometimes lonely, but still very strong. at least, we live properly and for ourselves. when we see some of our friends being upset over the stupidest things... and how they cant survive w/o their bfs, the three of us kinda smiled and agreed that our lives are not bad afterall [:







we were so drained from all the laughing, we were knocked out and had to drag our legs to the bus stop and wait for the bus which took forever to come. then the bus dropped us at some ulu place and we had to drag our asses along the highway to marina bay mrt. ]: so sleeeeepy. then finallly, i dunno how i managed to even get home. talked on the phone awhile then knocked out!

woke up today to daddy's nagging. lol! "walao, 12 already still in bed ar" lol! so got up, brushed teeth and decided where to lunch... and after one big circle, lee wee bro's nasi lemak. lol! no wonder now so thirsty!

plus aunty esther came just now!! omg. i havent seen her in 2 years. so weird to see a familiar face. she used to be our maid for what? 10 years? and we decided we were grown up and didnt need a maid already. but yeah. she's changed alot. missed her [: and bro said they saw uncle maurice last night. sigh. bringing uncle maurice up.. always makes my heart damn sad. seriously. i will never ever forget that night. i guess, its impossible to keep in touch with him. i hope fate will bring us together soon. we've all tried to get in touch with him. but to no avail. maybe will try to call him tonight. yup. sighhhh.

ok. gonna watch abit of tv! ciao!

p/s: im really lame lor. that day went to buy amenities right, i actually bought 2 hair conditioners. i naturally assumed the bigger bottle was the shampoo. when it was also conditioner. now i have 3 bottles of conditioners and no shampoo. had to resort to using my bro's ba wang shampoo ar? stinks lor. ]:

stomach cramps, stomach cramps.. Please go away by tmr! Thanks..

feeling shitty

im feeling shitty. really shittish. hate menstruation. why???? gahhhh...

i love being the society parasite i am!

maybe its the mood swing or the hormonal imbalance.. but im actually getting adrenaline rush from doing nothing on a friday afternoon! i am enjoying my life doing nothing! LOL! actually, for years, i have been looking forward to today. but i always forget how a relaxing afternoon doing nothing is actually very nice and not boring. i have brian mcfadden and his irish son playing on my CD player!! and i have a cup of green tea beside me while i'm blogging. the tv is switched off. i wanted to catch up on "your hand in mine" on xinmsn. but i shall not. it shall be a mind detoxifying day for me. just let me clean up my mind and all the horrible thoughts and sink into my sanctuary! i wanted to find my jack johnson disc. but just can't find it. im still in my jammies by the way!!! what better way to enjoy life uh? totally no worries and can just kick back and relax. now, thats something money cannot buy. was just off the phone with alb just now. how nice if everyday could be like this, just chatting random nonsensical nonsense to a good friend while rolling on your couch with ur jammies still on! i love nt contributing to the economy and just wasting my afternoon away like that! hahaha!!! anyway, in my defence, i DID contribute yesterday and somemore by a lot lor. sigh! oh well. money comes and go. wootsie! if only my tummy didnt ache, it would have been the bestest day i have ever had in a long long time. no fake smiles. no makeup. just being me in such a lovely place i'd like to call home!

i should do this more often. hahaha. i shall go pack notes for george later. and pack my bed at least. then read westlife. q lazy to read. blah. hahahaha. see how la~~ maybe iron clothes first. hoohoo.

hahahahah! nathan's going NS on 9 nov. can laugh. but oh well. this means more L4d2 then!!

Just some random thoughts

omg. i forgot to add an important detail. i finally got to see my paul frank headphones upclose. but its $116 after discount. which is actually cheap for skullcandy headphones. omg. its fucking fucking love. but $116 is just too big of an amount from my bank a/c. sigh. reggie's gonna get it. hahaha. i guess im gonna be satisfied with my earphones la. omg. the headphones.. they are pure love. itssss such a beaut! but i don't NEED it. i just WANT it. plus i still needta fulfill my promise and get my national geographic book. hahaha. plus also, its brother's/nathan's/regina's/aunt's/hong choo's birthdays this month.

what a good way to start a day. woke up with that time of the month. and somemore yesterday, drank a big cup full of icy lemon hibiscus. omg. cramps. plus tmr have picnic. fuckk. ]: hopefully i will get better tmr.

random note: omg. i love to watch the price is right. i forgot how drew carrey can make me smile lor! plus all the crazy contestants. my lifelong dream is to be on price is right or wheel of fortune. sighh. if those can come true ar, i'd really die with no regrets. lol! omgggggggggggggggggggg. plus just now the showcase for price is right, is SWITZERLAND!

shall have some dark chocolate from switzerland now. lol. ciao

SHOPPING~!!

if today wasn't a happy day, then i don't know what is! met up with reggie at 2.30pm to go unisim, to find out that it's a wasted trip. bleah! but anyway, took a long bus ride to raffles place to eat our favourite minced meat noodles with extra vinegar! song kee is the best in singapore! even reggie agreed. plus, we ate in everyday during internship days!!! so much memories. and of course, we had our fen yuans!!!! remembered the days when we couldnt afford to eat proper lunch, but we insisted on eating fen yuans every single day for 3 weeks??? hahaha. but still as nice as ever! fen yuans!!

fen yuans! u cant see the fen yuans like that.. but underneath those sweet sweet ice.. are those colourful balls of flour [:

then after eating, we went to 313@ sommerset. forever21. lol! oh fuckkk. i saw this damn gorgeous maxi dress. its so hard to even find a maxi dress with nice patterns. cus i find alot too pattern-ish/ flowerish which makes it look obiang.. but this.. is IT!

$55. for something i might not even wear 10 times in my life. but, very gorgeous. plus it was e last piece! might wear it for class picnic on saturday... omg. [:

and got a tee... for school. currently, im trying to stock up as many nice tees as possible for school.

loves! i can't buy anymore f21 stuff already la. im really q broke. ]: actually, very very broke. its like, i need to stop spending for now, cus im waiting for their romper to come to singapore. so must curb. have got enough tees already.

so after walking around, we parted ways. i headed to suntec to get some decent shopping done. i know i've been scouting around since GSS started.. but haven't had a decent shopping trip. so i bought myself starbuck's lemon hibiscus drink, which was very fragrant by the way, and started my quest! omg! it really was fucking shiok to go round confidently, seeing what i want and then... SWIPE! dun worry, its a debit card. not a credit card. oh well. i guess all i needed was one GOOD shopping trip.

i was on the way to suntec and passed by MPH. the bookworm in me never dies ar. went in to see what good buys there were. there werent much. but westlife biography! now, thats a catch! last one on the shelf!!! and i am a die-hard westlife fan although they're now doing covers and no more original songs. but still love them. just wished they had brian mcfadden on the cover.. ]: and meg cabot for $8! lol! where to find?

went to optician after optician to look for the best deals for contacts. guess 933 was the best deal.


headed to body shop!! i finally can buy stuff from there. cus everytime go there with family/ friends then i dun really have the time to choose. the body scrub is soooo fragrant and my skin is fuckin smooth! shiok and happy!!! hoohoo~ i remembered the last time i got body scrub, i loved it so much i used it everyday. and it was gone so fast. but body scrubs are usually ex. so yeah. happy to have this again! [:

and concealer from body shop! finally also! it has been years since i got concealer! soo yupp.... [:

and finally...


my postman bag arrived the other day! (: i love it!!!

retail therapy isssss the best. but now, im a broke girl. but happy one. oh well!

anyway, i've decided to go get some stuff done before school starts!

1. pack up my damnnnnn messy room. i need a conducive place to mug and go london!
2. pack up wardrobe.
3. pack up drawer
4. clear my shelf for books
5. go clubbing before i decide to hit the books and be guai. i just need 1 session can already -looks at alb-

lol. by the way, i just saw the scene from desperate housewife where gabriel went to the club to look for her niece.. so she paid the DJ money to let her use the mc.. then stopped the music and told everyone that if they dont find her niece who was wearing a white top and gold leggings, she would call the cops. lol! funny. but scary if this happens here sia. esp to me x= but just one last time!!!!! [: and i can go to school the geeky, nerdy girl im supposed to be.

done.

I'm a coward

went ta have dinner with family at astons. had honey ribs. lol. damnnnnn filling. but my bro and dad were still hungry after eating their share. ok, so far, i'll rank the pork ribs i've eaten in this order:

1st - cafe cartel
2nd - astons
3rd - kenny rogers

but fuckin fattening though. so just now when i came home, i told daddy to wait for me to go jogging at back alley also. supposed to jog 10 rounds.. its not alot, really. i think, maybe about.. erm.. almost 4km ba in total. but i brisk walked instead of jogged cus just eaten. but anyway, i was really getting more and more energetic and wanting to walk more, when at the 6th round, i saw 2 cockroaches running across the path. ZOMG. i just jumped and screamed and sprinted to the front. then i begged my father to run by the outside way.. and i saw another 2 scampering around. omggggg.. totally had goosebumps. then we ran back the same route cus there were just too many roads through the outside way.. so the momentum keeps breaking cus had to stop. then we decided to not run to the end, but instead run more rounds, but shorten the rounds. fuck those damn scampering brown thingss. omggg.. reallyy.. really... annoying. ]: its like, im not even scared of lizards in the shower. damn those roaches!

gahh. i seriously dont like kane. ass. everyone got their pay already leh. wtf. i havent got mine. i knew that he didnt like me from the start lor! dman sian. if tmr i dont get it in the mailbox, im so gonna call him up. very pekchek lor. everytime give job then last minute. then pay also last minute. zzzz. and everytime i work, i do my best one la. gahhhh. damn angry.fuck him la. bloody hell.

Changed blogskin!

i've changed blogskin again! well, the reason is, i love pinocchio. but i just don't feel that its in me to use other people's pictures and call it mine. its just lazy. i was trying to edit some pics just now, and i came up with this. hahaha. i love the daisies! they're my favourite flowers! and i changed the colours and fonts of this blog. i've been doing black or white recently, so boring! this is very very nice and warm. the colours. all the browns and reds. i feel very happy to come into my blog now! i was quite sian when it was the pinocchio one. took 1 hour to decorate that picture and have to undergo my brother's judgement. lol. i think its worth it! so wassup with my life? nothing. lol. yesterday my couch was my sanctuary. watched "Matilda" and "月亮的秘密" and alot of tv shows in between. ok la. relaxing. today woke up.. watched tv. aircon man supposed to come. in the end didn't. i took my sweet valley books out. time to read them again! hahahah! yes! something to sink me into. oh well, yet another person is attached on my fb. hmmm, my thoughts? numb to it already. hahaha. cant wait to sink into sweet valley! fucking free for the whole of next week. ok. nothing substantial to blog about except that my neck is strained. hahah. okie dokie. ciao~

p/s: postman bag came in ytd!

p/p/s: hope my maxi dress can come in soon! cus this sat gonna have class picnic. hopefully can wear to class picnic!

Sex and the city is what i wanna be.

Have pms now. think my period is coming.. very bad mood swing. thank god for sex and the city2! headed to potong pasir to choose photo. have ta go back and collect the pic on another day. siannn. then met up with tf to watch sex and the city 2. Elly found me in the cinema! she was supposed to pass me my ear studs.. but she forgot. but she gave me this bag of sweets! so sweet of her! hahaha. [: anyway im on a diet nw.. so better not eat too many of those.

ok. so today's blog will be all about sex and the city!

firstly, as always, sex and the city will blow your mind away as usual. just when u think that our lives cannot get anymore lavish, they teach u what LAVISH means. omg. Abu Dabi. i wanna go there now! lol!! but then, i'd say, sex and the city (SATC) 1 was wayyyy more bimbo than 2. but still as bimbotically fun as usual! satc2 doesnt have a lot of sex scene.. but with samantha.. everything is sexual! LOL! sigh! i wished i had the wardrobe of carrie, the relationship perspective of samantha (which is, nothing serious. she almost settled down in satc), the cuteness of Charlotte and the wits of Miranda! and when i turn mid 40s, i want friends like them. not the lavish part, but their bond. like how samantha turned down her steamy date to spend the night with her girlfriends! i really loveeeee sex and the city 2! always boosts my confidence! i wanna lead carrie's life. i've said it before. and i'll say it again. she's my inspiration! and i wanna have samantha's carefree mindset when it comes to relationships. she's smart. although she's a sexpot.. LOL.. i dun wanna be a sexpot. but then, when last season she was proposed to, she chose not to, and she saw that hawtttt guy showering! lol! sigh. i still hold the belief that anyone who goes through a relationship will definitely end up hurt in one way or another. there will definitely be casualties. its a matter of whether you know it or not. i don't know.. but if i can lead the kind of love life samantha leads, well, i dont see anything bad out of it? although she does have a lonely times.. but hey, theres always pros and cons to everything.. haha. GO SAMANTHA!

ok la. im gonna sleep. heres something i came up for my mum's company:

they're gonna advertise in brd's yearbook. lol.

and fuck, my phonebills came up to $86. shit. really need to sign up for data charge plan soon. maybe tomorrow. data charges chalked up to about $49!

aye, shall head ot bed. OMFG. $86. zomgggggggg. my paycheque from uss last mth was only $77! oh fuck. goodbye GSS. goodbye money. ]:

it has been a long day

it's a long sunday. as the song collide goes.. "even the best fall down sometimes.." seeing ken so upset about his car accident, really hurts me too. it was nothing serious. the motorcyclist had a fractured leg.. but ken felt so damn bad about it. sigh! my dearest cousin Kenson! ken has always been the idol of my life. i put him as a yardstick when it comes to searching for the perfect guy. he is what i truly admire him to be. he is a perfectionist. only wanting the best, he went through the elite route in education, dunman to tjc to nus... became what i thought was perfect for him, a teacher. through this journey, he takes control of his life and steers it properly to make sure no mistake is made. he loves his family a lot. he is really an extinct species in our modern day society. really. until today, i have yet to see anyone who has come close to how.. perfect he is.u know, he said that if one day singapore were to be in a war, he wanna be the first to defend the nation.and now.. this is the first time i saw him so destroyed. sigh. such a strong character.. can fall down. and its just a small error, but he just couldn't take any flaws in his life. and this, is a scar for him. i just hope he will stand up again... he must have felt he let alot of people down. sigh. anyway seeing george working so hard for his grades also motivates me. those 2 brothers ar.. really really awesome people.

anyway, i really have a lot to learn from my dad. remembered earlier on, i said he striked a little money from jackpot at rws. today he treated some relatives, about 2 tables full of relatives. my mum's side also got invite. just close ones la. seeing all the yi yis and uncles happily chatting as though it was chinese new year... is really heartwarming. i mean, my dad could have just given red packets and call it quits. but he even had a luncheon to gather people together. and the most touching thing was when ahyi said how the happy ambience cheered her up despite ken's incident. and i had a lot of fun too, talking to my ahyi and cousins. and my uncles. i wouldn't have traded this happiness i felt for anything in the world. i just hope we do this more often.

my father's selflessness gives me hope. i do hope ken will stand up again soon.. [: maybe this incident might deem him as being slightly imperfect. but i feel, the imperfection has made his perfections stand out even more. makes him feel more human like.

I just wanna soak up the sun~

today has been an eventfully beautiful day! it didn't start very well though. woke up at 12 plus. waited for parents to come back with lunch. had lunch, and headed to haig road to get my ibanking done. (updates: maxi dress and postman bag bought!) then decided to buy 4D at cheers. lol! (updates: i didn't strike.) oh well. just trying my luck anyway. did pedi. i wanted to paint it green. but something told me i shud go for black to be safe. and i did. and shaped eyebrows. omgggg. too loong never shape.. and i really wanted to kill myself with the pain surging through my pores as she plucked those wild hair around eye area. think i'll try threading at where emma did hers. quite good and last also. humph. chionged home and settle payment and went to marine parade to meet hong choo and anita. so funny! i overshot 1 stop. and apparently, hc and anita alighted 1 stop earlier. lol! so when they said they were at block 72, i was like huh? its blk 50++ here. lol! and i walked about.. 45 minutes around marine parade and finally found the correct bus stop. LOL! hopeless .. ]: (note: Alb, i know u are sniggering, u asss!)

then we headed to ecp and rented a bike! so happy. i almost knocked into this girl ]: then i shouted "OH FUCKKKK" and she giggled. lol! cute sia. cycled to bedok jetty then we just sat there and look at the oil-stained sea and talked about.. life. sigh! i really really hope i can go to england exactly in 1 year's time! omg. yeah. looking at the clear sky (Except that, we can see a whole patch of dark clouds hovering CBD) sure reminds u that "the sky's the limit. that, u are not trapped in the small world u think u are. there is much more for u to discover out there!" the kind of feeling. abit denial, but i believe in it. i remember dipping into the hot tub at Clarendon, Sydney. clarendon was this, retreat.. we had this whole villa to ourselves.. and me and lorr's bedroom was at the attic! can see stars. and i remembered dipping into the fucking cold pool, look at the wilderness that surrounds us and think to myself, whenever i feel that my life sucks and theres only gonna be so much going on in my life, i must remember the sight i saw in that pool. because that view, where u can see wild kangaroos hopping, the lake, the trees after trees and the mountains.. you know theres so much more beyond what i think there is.

ok, lol! sidetracked! so anyway, we carried on when hongchoo's slippers GAVE WAY. lol!!! then she had to ride back barefooted while we scouted for slippers. then found a shop that sold cheapo slippers. another sidetrack: LOL! i mean, i used to go by these shops and wonder, pls la! who will ever buy slippers from here. x= OH WELL. shall bite my own words. so anyway, after that, we decided to move on to changi again. lol! its more tiring than i expected. but i loveeee looking at the trees along the way. they remind me of my fantasy! i dunno if i told people this before, but my perfect date goes like this: i meet my university boyfriend at the lawn of our beautiful white campuses (those u see in movies).. then the lawn has carpet grass. my date would be wearing one of those, shirt+vest combi with straight-cut jeans with brown shoes. then we'd meet at the entrance of our school gate and we'd kiss. then we'll hold hands and walk to the carpet-grassish lawn and under our favourite tree where we will lay our blanket. then i'll be in his arms and we'd be drinking tea/champagne and talking about how our day went. and cloud watching!

ok. ths isn't really completely irrelevant. i cant go to one of these white campus/carpet grass lawn places anymore since i've confirmed a place in sim. and the last time i checked, sim only has a jungle opposite its bus stop. ]: so unless my date is tarzan, i doubt im gonna have that perfect date. but cycling through ecp, i saw the perfect lawn for that perfect date!! though its quite retarded cus

1. the weather is fucking humid
2. lotsa cycling+noisy fucking kids (including me today) around
3. prolly alot of ants around. ]:

but yeah. so i felt happy looking at the grass and trees combo cus it reminded me of my fantasy. oh well! then we cycled past obs and almost towards the start of the road to changi village. and we u-turned. cycled back non-stop but stopped by long beach to make reservation. lol! for dinnnnnnerrrrr! we cycled back, returned the bikes.. and walked back to long beach with our jelly legs. luckily we had each other, if nt,i doubt i can survive. we ordered chilli crab and hor fun. and 3 fried buns. OMG. yummy as usual. loveeeee long beach food to the max. the girls loveeddd the buns. so we ordered again. hahahah! and we ended the meal with glutinous rice with coconut ice cream~~~~~~~~~ yummy to the max. shiok like hell. also guilty, cus the calories burnt have been put back.

i forgot how beautifully carefree it felt to cycle! i forgot how easily i smile when the breeze kiss my skin. i think im gonna do it sometime this week again. maybe with owl city songs plugged in! [: ok. such a pleasant day today. maybe i'm really a wild stallion deep inside my heart that has been cultured by the urban jungle!

oh well. shall go watch some family guy and sleep.

p/s: i would like to thank the foreign workers who cleaned up the sea! east coast park's sea is already dirty enough usually. but its fucking gross on the papers. the oil spill. and although can see the shiny shiny parts where theres still oil.. but i think its very efficient of them to clean up so much of the oil. we walked past some of the bags that were lying around and it stunk like fuck. its vomit-inducingly smelly. so imagined if they didnt clean it? sigh. we singaporeans only know how to talk and pay money to ppl to clean our mess up. but what if they werent there? who would we pay? ya? so really wanna thank them. sigh. to think we still despise them despite what they do for us. seriously.

soak up the sun

YESSSSSSSSSS. AM GOING TO GO CYCLING IN A FEW HOURS TIME! YESH!!!!!! [=

updates: am nt getting that bag le. getting this instead. POSTMAN bag!!

laziness.

i'm too lazy to blog. ]: PMS. plus, theres nothing to blog about. yesterday went to have lunch with tf @ starbucks. love cranberry and walnut toast with cream cheeze. yumzzz. just chilled and after that, went to SIM with reggie only to find out that we need to go back to SIM again next week. i might wanna do accounting with law. gotta check how to do that. after that, took a super duper long bus ride to jurong point to see reggie suffer her pain! MWHAHAHHAA. no la, she got her ears pierced too! yay!! 2 more days and i can remove my ear studs. plus its gonna be payday again! allowance day also! but i just joined "ji pa ban" .. its this community where u can see online shops over singapore in one place. under "usual sites" to sign up. and i actually have 14 items on my wishlist. but these 2, im getting.

i've always wanted to get a maxi dress. the one i saw at fep is.. satin. but $128. this is only $30. and ish nice. lovesss...


chio or what! lol!! $21 after discount.

although great singapore sales started already, but i've been so ... crazy about it for about 6 years now and its getting boring. cus the stuff on sale are usually not very worth getting. except maybe f21's GSS. or cotton on's. cus its dirt cheap. as for shops like topshop and selfridge, its alot of discount, but i still wont pay that amount for whatever material/designs they have on the sales rack. accessories maybe. but clothes.. very few attract me these days. oh well! so might as well splurge on online stuffs.

anyway, as reggie always have to remind me, im saving up for London~~ or a car~~ or just a rainy day. so, yup :)

and as for today, as been a day wasted? idk. movie marathon u can say. watched "The hangover" ZOMGGGG. ITS FUCKING HILARIOUS. omggggg. i really roared like mad. super super super funny. omgggggg. then watched a family guy episode in between. rented "scary movie" and "scary movie 4" on miotv. i know, " shirley, why dun dl?" well, because i dont rlly wanna wait.. and i sometimes like to watch my movies on a bigger screen and with better sound. omg. the japanese-speaking scene is always tickling my funny bone. fujitsu = yes. LOLOL! and the boy from ju-on! LOLOLOL! poor boy. then family guy-ed in between also. and watch drama. and then made french toast for dinner. cus my dad bought a loaf of bread last week. and today's the expiry date. what better way of using almost expired bread? FRENCH TOAST! my family dont eat brekkie at home one la. sometimes my father wants us to eat, so he buys. and no one eats. and we have to rush to finish the bread eventually. like the last time, to finish off the bread, we bought chilli crab. lol! oh well.

anyway, theres something i must blog about. everytime i look at the elmo soft toy, i'd think of someone who has suffered because of me. of course, if i had given him a chance, i'd be doing more injustice to him only. but then, the elmo toy just shows what kind of bad person i am. as much as i felt that i probably dont deserve any better in the future, but what about those who did me injustice in the past? shouldn't they be punished too? but i dont see that happening.. so well.. i know we cannot be so calculative in life, but the phrase "tit for tat" hasn't been thought about for nothing, has it?

oh well. and how lame can uss be la. im only working for 1 day next month. lol! but oh well, its not all a loss. its AIR SUPPLY concert!!!! "All out of love".. i just need to hear them sing that, and i am one happy girl! [:

one last thing, happy vesak day to all other buddhists in the world! i know, im a very un-devoted one.. but i still am one anyway. well, at least i dont do things against my morals. like min yi... who has been sentenced to 6 months jail. sigh. the thing is, so what if u shaved ur head and wear a robe and brown beads around you? i dont think its buddhism even if u did that when ur insides are as corrupted what the buddhist teachings has taught us against. so at least, i'm not the worst buddhist .. so its ok. thanks buddha, for making my heart calm whenever i scare myself. and although it feels like i only call upon you when im in dire straits. but thanks anyway for sometimes making me feel .. okay.

alright!! must settle ibanking thing. and i will have my maxi DRESS~